Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I kept thinking lately.About my past, present and future.
Slowly erasing some old memories from my mind.
I feel like starting afresh.
When I'm reminded of the past,
I just cant seem to move on.
I guess its time to let go of the past.
From A to F to R to B to F to N.
Saying goodbye to old memories that left a deep cut in my heart long time ago.
Im sorry for having doubts about you
Im sorry for not being myself these days
Im sorry for keeping things from you
Im sorry for being angry at you
Im sorry to make you feel so bad
Im sorry to make you angry with me
Im sorry for everything
At times I just wanted to be alone.
Having some thoughts on everything.
I wonder, I wonder and I wonder.
At times I felt its unfair to him.
I cant seem to trust him completely when he do trust me 100%.
He never have any doubts about me but I do have on him.
Although he's angry with me, he do talk to me about it whereas I prefer to
keep myself in silence and kept him waited for my msg the whole day.
I feel so guilty towards him that at times I felt I wasnt good enough for him.
But nevetherless leaving him never had once come across my mind
cause despite everything,
I wanna go through every challenges ahead with him.
He makes me feel the love that I yearn for all these while.He told me day by day I seemed to change.Im not nanie that he once knew the first time we're together.I choose to be in silence whenever I have some thoughts in my mind.Not only about relationship, but about my path of life, work, etc.I seldom share with him about my feelings, my thoughts.Maybe thats the reason why he was worried.There's some things that Ive been keeping to myself.I wanted to share to him but I dont have the courage to let it all out to him.I guess its time.Since Ive made up my mind of letting go of the past,maybe by sharing everything, it will make my heart at ease.At least there's nothing to hide from him anymore.This way, perhaps, enable me to move on. =))I cant take it anymore. Haha!Cheer up Nanie!!& Zul, lets have that Ice Cream again at YTP!! ;P
The Story Of You & Me
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