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Monday, August 31, 2009

Its 1 plus already and I still have yet to sleep.
Its been weeks to since I last blog.
Well, 100% confirmed!
No one would read this blog. :P
Well, working just now till 6.30pm
Break fast with MOZ.
He simply so the 'rajin' to come all the way to taka
eventhough he had sore eyes.
Break fast at KFC. CHEESEFRIES!
He never even tell me he brought along kebab, putu piring and putu mayam.
If I knew earlier we would just break fast with whatever he brings.
Crazy MOZG!
Thats one thing. Another thing,
since he treat me to KFC, he wants to treat my family la pulak.
So he insist of buying satay for my family.
So many food to bring home.
I tell you, he's crazy. MOZG la katekan. :P

Mr Snoring has been stressed up with finding jobs.
And at times I feel I couldnt be of much help to him.
All I can do is to give him support cause I guess thats
what he needs the most.
Im able to understand him.
And I respect every decision that he take.
He feels he's a failure but to me he never was.
I have faith in him the same way he do.
And Insyaallah, as long as he never give up,
there's surely a way for him to reach his goals.
All I can do now is to pray for him.
Though at times I yearn for a love from him
which I admit I never feel the love from him before
eversince we were together.
But Im willing to put all that aside cause I know
I cant be too selfish to think about my own wants.
We lack of communication.
We never meet each other often
or even contacting one another.
But I didnt make a big fuss over it
cause I understand his situation.

Sister once said, I actually yearn for a love from someone
but the only person I want it was only from Mr Snoring.
Bestie once said, I should find someone who can spend more time with me
and shower me with love that I always wanted.
Owl once said, If I really love him, do something to save our relationship
but If I dont, talk things out in a peaceful way.
MOZ once said, whatever I am thinking, If I cant get the answer alone,
try asking others n who knows they might have the answer to my qns.

All these kept lingering in my mind.
Though I dont wish to think about it.
Cause I dont know and there's nothing I could do at this moment.
My mind is blank. Im just confused.

The Story Of You & Me
1:35 AM.




Sunday, August 16, 2009

I guess its gonna be a super long post for today.
So whats happening last week and this week?
Lets see. Ermm.
Outings? Presentation?


07 Aug 09
Went out with Zorro.
Exploring Orchard area.
Eat at LJS.
Sharing session at Tasik via Bukit Panjang Park.


09 Aug 09
National Day
Went out with Zorro.
Exploring Changi Park.
Eating Roti John & Satay.
Spooky.
Sit nearby the sea.


10 Aug 09
Kenduri at Wak Pah's house.
Sleeping.
Eating.


12 Aug 09
ERP Presentation.
(?.?) When asking to create PO.
Done with ERP Presentation.
Working.
Whole night never sleep. =.=
Accompanied by Zorro.


13 Aug 09
PM Presentation.
Screw up during Q&A session.
Done with PM Presentation.
Cried.
Went out with Sha.
Eating Fried Cockle Kway Teow at Banquet.
Lepak-ing at Saujana Court with Sha & Zul.
Whole night never sleep. =.=


14 Aug 09
SAD Presentation.
Fine.
Done with SAD Presentation.

Went out with Nir Ayim.

Well, thats what happened during the past few days.
Since yesterday I had this feeling of uneasiness.
I dont know what is it.
Zorro and Ketot keep asking me to share with them.
But how am I gonna share with I dont even know what is it.
Maybe because of my Mr Snoring?

Met up with my Mr Snoring on friday.
Its a great day spending time with him.
After 1 month plus didnt get to meet him
cause he kind of busy with work and stress up finding jobs.
Suppose to meet him after friday prayers at Aljunied.
But he reached at 1445.
Spend time with him till 6 plus.
Then we headed to Kovan cause he wanted to register for car license.
While waiting for the registration,
he went to smoke.
Aat the same time he told me,
he left with 3 weeks beofre his ns finish.
And that he still have not find jobs.
Thus, no income for next month onwards.
He told he he doesnt contact me cause he feels he's a failure.
He couldnt find a job at the moment
and that he cant be thinking of love at the moment.
My face change when I heard that.
And there goes, he said,
"Muke u eh. Ibaratkan bola, mintak kene tendang eh."
Haha. He said I get emo easily.
Aand yes. Its true especially when it cmes to relationship.
I cant deny that seriously.

After registration, we went to Hougang Interchange.
Where we heading? Home la. Haha.
He apologized to me for not able to send me back home.
Along the way he made me laugh by singing
'Cari Jodoh by Wali Band' =)
We waited for bus 161.
Soon when the bus arrived, I dont wanna board it.


Mr Ayim : Why u dont wanna board the bus? Miss me eh?
Ala. No need to be shy la.
Ms Nanie : *smile*
Mr Ayim : Dear, take care of yourself ok when going back home.

Happy when finally get to meet him.
But sadness comes when we're about to go our different ways.
How I wish I could spend more time with him.
I watched him sleeping so soundly.
Many questions filled my mind.
How I wish I could share everything to him.
We seems difficult to trust each other.
But I just hope whatever he said
is sincerely expressed from the bottom of his heart,
same goes as me.
I'll pray hoping he's the last one for me.
Insyaallah.
Lets fate decide.


Coming next week??
Mon(17 Aug 09) -> SAD Test
Wed(19 Aug 09) -> ERP Test, Working
Thurs(20 Aug 09) -> PM Test
Sat(22 Aug 09) -> Fasting
Sun(23 Aug 09) -> Working

The Story Of You & Me
4:20 PM.




Monday, August 10, 2009


Happy 3 months to Nir Ayim. =))
Everythings fine now.
At least for this moment.
*Winks*

Nanie loves Nir. :P

The Story Of You & Me
10:20 PM.




Sunday, August 2, 2009

Had a great day today though I could only enjoy it for like 2 hrs?
Went out with zorro and two of his cousins.
Shahira n Hadi.
First time ever I went out with a group of people that is older than me.
Went to eat at Cheese Prata at West Coast.
Then we went to Kentridge to chill for awhile.
If I never work just now,
I would be able to stay a lil late with them.
Cause seriously right now I need to relax my mind.
Going out with them makes me forget about my troubles 4 awhile.
As usual Im the quiet one.
But I never felt so bored having to listen to their convo.
Thanks to them for making me smile.

Its been a week plus and he still hasnt contact me.
Its really distracting me
and whatever I do either at school, home or work,
things doesnt seems right.
I daydreaming most of the time.
And I did cry too when Im at work.
I tried to be strong and stay positive
but each time when I think of what he did,
it reminds me of the past.
History seems to repeat again for the 3rd time.
3 times I had to go through the same thing.
When will it ends?
My sis said maybe I never told him about what Ive gone through last time
thats why he did this.
But I just cant. I mean, how can I share with him
when he's not here.
Not here when I need himt the most.

How I wish I never accepted him.
How I wish I never had this feeling of love inside me.
How I wish I never met any guy who can unlock my heart.
How I wish he knows what I feel right now.
How I wish I could go far away from here.
How I wish.............
Its hurtful. Yes it is.

The Story Of You & Me
10:46 PM.






.hEr BiOGrApHy.


'-NaMe-'
SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA

'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE

'-D.O.B-'
14 JaNuArY 1990

'-PrOffEsIoN-'
StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR

'-SaYiNG-‘
ItS iMpOsSiBLe To Go ThRoUGh LiFe WiThOuT tRuSt



.DeDiCaTiOnS.


~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~

The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you

I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you

Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you

I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you

Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart

I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you




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~ L o V e L i E s ~

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