Should I accept him? What about the past? Am I able to forget everything? Or should I just wait for him? What if history repeats itself again? Am I able to face it? Am i that strong to move on?
I dont need all those to show your love towards me. I just need your smile to make me happy. I just need your presence to keep me going. I just need your honesty to make me stay with you. I hope you understand. Prove to me that u will change. And I will decide. :)
Im broke! Arggghh! When will I get my pay? My bill? My concession? My ez-link? My parents? My allowance? My check-up? My spectacle? Oh-oh! -.- D.E.A.D!
*Im confused with my own feelings. I just couldnt accept anyone. My heart keeps saying I need to stay. I need to wait. He will come back. But what if all this is just a dream that will never ever happened?*
The Story Of You & Me 5:00 PM.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
The Story Of You & Me 10:39 AM.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Just 2 words, I learnt yesterday. And this two words indeed shows a deep meaning, "G.O A.W.A.Y!" Easy to said after all those promises that were made. Just 3 words to describe everything.
I look on the brighter side. Well, though 1 month seems to be such a waste to have waited for a person who totally and simply doesnt deserve to be with, it makes me getting used to not having him in my life. Getting to know Mr B while that Mr A going "overseas", makes me realise another thing. Mungkin apa yang terjadi ada hikmah disebaliknya.
Well, everythings ended. Shall forget everything. Insyaallah. Ohh, another thing. Im now in the process of doing a so called mini-poem-book, title: "Luahan Hati Dua Insan". Its just for memories ever since i started doing my own poem. Want to see?? Wait till everything's done. :)
I just wanted to know the truth But it seems that you put a stop to everything. I accepted it. I will never feel regret.
The Story Of You & Me 2:11 PM.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Maybe it's all over now. Should I just wait for the truth? Or should I just find out the truth? Im just tired having to think about all this. Is this what I get after waiting patiently for him for 1 month? When all those words are just a bunch of lies? I have no answer to that eventhough it seems to be the truth. Why is it that each time I accepted someone in my life and hoping that he was the last and forever for me, but it always turn out that he wasnt? Is it really a shameful thing to be with someone like me? Does my face shows that I am a "can-easily-be-cheated" kind of person? I know i have alot of weaknesses. I know that from the start its always the same thing happen. They said they can change me. They said they can give me confidence. They said they dont mind. But all those words doesnt seem to be the way it suppose to mean. It will always became an issue for the break-ups. Ive been going through all these in my life for 4 times. And I guess this will be the last time I accepted someone in my life. I dont want to waste any more tears for them. I dont want my head hurts because of thinking too much about them. Im really2 tired. Why must love exist? Why must there be a feeling of loving someone? When all it can do is to add sadness in my life instead of brighten it up. My heart is aready broken. I gave up!
*Why does my heart keeps saying that he's not what I think he is? Why does this heart keeps denying? Adakah semua ini ternyata benar? Atau ia hanya salah faham? "Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui segalanya. Berikanlah petunjukMu Ya Allah. Tunjukkanlah segala kebenaran pada semua ini. Sesungguhnya hanya padaMu ku bermohon. Amin."*
The Story Of You & Me 2:41 PM.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Hear this song! Nice :))
The Story Of You & Me 4:19 PM.
.hEr BiOGrApHy.
'-NaMe-'
SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA
'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE
'-D.O.B-'
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JaNuArY 1990
'-PrOffEsIoN-'
StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR
'-SaYiNG-‘ ItS iMpOsSiBLe To Go ThRoUGh LiFe WiThOuT tRuSt
.DeDiCaTiOnS.
~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~
The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
