Sunday, January 31, 2010
At 1 plus in the morning, I started to feel uneasy.My whole body starts to shiver and my hand starts to tremble.Never did I expect something bad would happen.When he suddenly called and told me he could not meet me todayand that he was at hospital and there goes. The line just cut off.This morning I was awaken by his call saying that he just discharged from hospitalcause he met with an accident.One thing he told me was, not to cry when I saw his condition.He took taxi and alighted at my place.I was shocked. I stared at him.Bad injuries, bandage, all over his body.I went quiet the whole day, controlling my tears.Cause I dont want to shed tears in front of him.Despite in pain, he still afford to laugh and joke around.Trying to cheer me up from being sad.Im worried, scared till I couldnt say a single word.Walk together to his house.Bought some food and took care of him till 2 plus.If not because of my mum, I wouldnt wanna leave him.I wish I could be there when he needs me.I dont deny that I actually cried when he was sleeping.I stared at him, prayed for him, thats the most I could do.And up till now, I still felt uneasy.I just dont know why.Will be rehearsing for CSB and FYP presentation tomorrow.But all that has happened right now really makes mehad no mood to make any preparations just yet.In my mind right now, its only him and nothing else. :'(Just a few days of not meeting u makes me misses u so much.Tell me how can I live and wait for youif you were to go away from me one day syg.I dont know how far we can go but one thing for sure,I dont wanna lose you. :(
The Story Of You & Me
8:35 PM.
300110
HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNY TO US! Time flies and now we're already a month together.
Specially created this just for you.
Sayang,
Engkaulah yang satu
Tidak pernah ku terbayang
Akan hidup bersama denganmu
Sayang,
Ku biarkan hati ini dicuri
Tanpa keraguan
Ku relakan ia hanya untuk dikau miliki
Sayang,Disaat bermulanya kisah kita
Tiada terlintas di fikiran dikau orangnyaKita bertemu kerana ketentuan IlahiSewaktu ku sedang merawat duka di hati
Sayang,Dalam diam dikau menaruh hati
Pada insan yang serba kekurangan ini
Tidak ku sambut terlebih dahuluNamun kesungguhanmu mengubah fikiranku
Sayang,Katamu berhikmah
Hatimu tulus suci dan murni
Kerana itu ku sedia menerima
Cintamu ku sambut dengan seikhlas hati
Sayang,Sebulan sudah ku bersamamuDikau hiasi hidupku dengan keikhlasan cintamu
Senyuman ini akan sentiasa ku ukirkan
Tanda bahagianya ku rasa disetiap pertemuan
Sayang,Hanya kejujuran yang ku pinta
Sebagai kekuatan untuk kita terus bersama
Walaupon akan hadirnya gelombang cinta diantara kita
Dengan penuh keredhaan, kita kan pasti mencapai mahligai bahagia*Im worried about you.
Where are you now, love? =(*
The Story Of You & Me
2:00 AM.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
25January2010Finally get to meet Zul after 9 days of accumulatingthe amount of misses I had towards him.Gagaga. Macam paham!It seems different.We laugh alot and share things more.If this way could make us feel happier,
should we do it more often? =)26January2010HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY IBU!Schedule for February:030210: FYP Presentation040210: Working 17:30-22:00050210: Working 17:30-22:00
060210: Working 13:30-22:00
070210: Working 09:30-17:30
080210: CSB Presentation
100210: MAB&WSNA Presentation
110210: MAB Test130210: LRBE Assignment
160210: Working 09:30-17:30
180210: WSNA Test
200210: Working 13:30-21:30
210210: Working 09:30-17:30
240210: LRBE Exam
250210: Working 17:30-21:30
260210: Working 17:30-21:30
270210: Working 13:30-21:30
280210: Working 09:30-17:30
020310: MATH Exam
=.=
See how tight my schedule is for the month of feb.Was thinking where should I go next?I thought it through.For now, after finishes poly I planned towork full time, take driving license, retaking english o leveland to further my religious studies. Insyaallah.Thats what I have in mind right now.And next year, i'll continue my studies in UniSIMtaking Psychology with Business. =))Insyaallah.
The Story Of You & Me
1:17 PM.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Tweety has been my companion
whenever I started to miss Bf. Hahaha.
S.U.P.ER the R.A.N.D.O.M
Sungguh tak perlu eh nanie!! ;P
I love the way you make me so happy
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.
The Story Of You & Me
12:24 AM.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Celebrating birthday on 140110 with Bf, Family & Besties were great.
Thanks everyone for the presents, wishes, etc.
Well, been managing my time with projects, work and loved ones.
And I always delay certain things a day or 2.
Its hard to manage though but so far Im able to.
Alhamdulillah.
Went for appointment on my birthday itself.Though my thyroid level has gone down but Im still having hyperthyroidism.
And doctor suggested that I should go for the radioiodine therapy. Ive read up about it though. And get some feedback from Yati too.And here's what she say,"After radioiodine, you will be on long-term medication throughout ur life.Alot of changes to ur body after the radioiodine as it deals with ur hormones.Your body may show changes e.g you may feel weak coz there's lesser hormones in ur body& there will be a period of time when ur body lacks of TSHwhere you will experience muscle pain and if u dont tell ur doc abt it,u can experience coma if ur TSH reaches its minimal level.Thats when u need to start on long term-medication.
Procedure:
Doc will tell you to stop your current medication a week or so before radio therapy.During radio therapy, they'll give you a "sip" of the iodine-131 in liquid form in a strawand you need to "sip" it.After radio therapy,you need to avoid crowded places and avoid getting near pregnant women and children below 6 yrs old cause you have radiation in ur body.During two weeks after radio therapy, you need to practice hygiene.After therapy u will feel like vomiting coz its like radio therapy for cancer patients.It depends on how well ur body can cope but u must be mentally preparedcoz you'll be taking medicines for the rest of ur life.Long-Term Side Effects:Hypothyroidism - Underactive Thyroid.Cost:Cost is less than $300 depending on ur dosage."Hows that sound to you?? Hmm.I'll be facing all these soon. Subhanallah.Some thoughts running on my mind right now.Keeping everything inside seems hard.But to share all these, I prefer not to.Forget it. Probably due to stress. That's why.Or perhaps other reasons? Hmm.Anyway to my bestie,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY RASHIDIN! =))
The Story Of You & Me
7:30 PM.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
ITS 0000HRS!SAD TO SAY,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :(I cant believe Im T.W.E.N.T.Y years old.
Not a -teen but a -ty. Haha.
Not becoming old but just becoming more matured.Thats what he says. Haha. :P
Just cant wait to meet Bf later.
Wwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
Recently Ive been hearing this jiwe2 song while I was working.
And this song really stuck in my head at this moment.
So I shall dedicate this song to Bf. Ok?
If you want to hear the song, find it yourself in youtube.
Thankiu! Hahaha.
I Do Cherish You - 98 Degrees
All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Till my dying day
The Story Of You & Me
12:00 AM.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Others might be wondering how can I actually forget everythingin just a short time and began to accept someone new in my life.
Some might be thinking that I'm a playgirl.
A girl who likes to play with other people's feeling.
But they just doesnt know what exactly happens.
Even SHE thinks of me that way which makes me really upset
over what she said to me a couple of days ago.
It hurts me deeply cause she's my closest ones.
And if she already have that negative thoughts about me, then what about the rest?
Its been days since I last talked to her.
And I really missed her so much.Her voice, her hug, her kisses, her smile, her laughter, her kecoh-ness.Without hearing all those, makes my life empty.Who else shall I turn to and share my feelings if not her?
Living in the same house but doesnt even talked to each other
makes me felt so awkward and uneasy.
Is it entirely my fault for things to happen this way?
Ive been meddling between work and school.
Plus I need to make time for family, friends and Bf.
Its just so hard.
If only there are more than 24 hours in a day,
this whole thing wouldnt be that complicated as it is now.
I just hope things would get back to normal. Insyaallah.
Been really tired this past few days. Havent had enough sleep due to lots of projs to rush here and there.Projects are due soon.
Exams are coming.
Im so stressed up.
But so far Ive been managing well.Thats when I have to force myself to stay up a little late at times.I gain motivation and strength from Zul each time I met him.Without him realised it.Thanks to Besties too for helping me out with my projs. =)Having bad migrane this past few days.And Ive been skipping medicine almost everyday.Sure will get scoldings from Dr Tham this coming thursday.
Anw, 6 more days left to dotdotdot. =P
Sometimes its just unfair to him.
At times I just felt like letting him go.
I keep reminding myself not to expect anything in this relationship.
And if ever he finds someone who can make him happy, Im willing to let him go.
Cause I know I cant make him happy.
There's so many difference in us.
I know he tries his best to adapt to my life.
Sometimes I just pity him.
I felt so guilty when I see his face.
I could sense how much he has done for me.
I will try to be there whenever he needs me.
First time I found someone who loves me more than I love him.
I dont know how far our relationship can go.
But insyaallah, we can make it far
as long as we are sincere and honest with each other.
ILY Zul!
Yes I do.
The Story Of You & Me
12:24 PM.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Flashback memories for 20092 months with A.
Painful moments I should say.
2 months of waiting but in the end it hurts so much.
Having high fever and bad migrane while having
bdae celebration over at bestie's house.
Attachment at Changi Airport is still a nightmare to me.
Plus grandma passed away.
The starting of FYP.
7 months with Snoring.
4 months of pretending nothing has ever happened.
Met new people.
MOZ, Black and new workmates.
Great moments together.
Never forget all those advices and motivation. =)
When 2009 was about to end,
things have been rather complicated
with the presence of 3 guys in my life lately.
But alhamdulillah things getting better.
At least for now.
And there's 1 thing left for me to do.
I dont have the courage to do anything just yet.
But whatever it is, sooner or later I still have to face it.
Hopefully things will be just fine. Insyaallah.
To share everything of whats going on lately
will be quite a long post for me to type here. =)
Thus I prefer not to.
Or maybe I'll make in into a few series. :P
Wait for my next post. =)
2009 may seems to leave me with sadness and painful memories
but at the same time
I ended 2009 with a new life. =) 301209 
Spent new year eve with Bf plus Nad & Al-fee
for double date dinner at Adam Rd after work.
Went to West Mall & play games at Time Zone
before headed back home. =)Its only 1 month knowing youAnd I never thought you would be the oneYou've done alot for me.Though its hard to change the old youBut you try your bestI never expect you to do thisCause I dont want you to be so good to meWe never know whats ahead of usI might hurt you in the endBut you choose to think positivelyWe may be in two different worldBut you choose to take the riskin wanting me to be part of you lifeYou bring happiness in my life and I really appreciate it.Hoping to go far with you. Insyaallah.ILYSM! =)
The Story Of You & Me
3:07 AM.
