Friday, January 30, 2009
Assalamualaikum.Well, im quite busy with school stuff lately.So no time for blogging and enjoying life at this moment.Sorry Nad, Sha, Zaf and the rest that i have no time tocomtact all of you.I dont know when will all this ended.Next week got 2 test to study.And a project submission.The following got 2 exam and 1 presentation.And the following 2 weeks already exam week.And i guess the another is my so called rest-week.And after that i have to go on an attachment for 1 month 2 weeks.Oh i forgot.I got posted into this Johnson Controls (s) Pte Ltd company.Have to start work on 2 March to 18 April.And im not sure whether saturday also have to work or not.If not wahh drop-dead i tell you. Seriously tired la.Imagine having to work office hour for 6 days and only get a 1 day rest?I wonder how its going to be like. Hmm.Lets wait and see.Anyway between me and Mr A seems fine.I still feel guilty for hurting Mr H.And today the whole day he never msg me or giving me any comment.Maybe thats a good sign or erm i dont know.Hopefully he never do anything that makes his life more torturing.I really didnt mean to hurt him.Im really sorry.Well, me and Mr A getting along fine.We decided to be just a "close friends" uh.To us loving each other doesnt mean we have to become a couple.Right? Haha. So i guess its better this way.We just keep a low profile uh.I never knew we would be given another chance to be together.Alhamdulillah. Thanks to Allah for letting us meet.I dont care what other might say.As long as he can lead me to the correct path thats all i wanted.Hopefully I will be able to change to a new Nanie this yearwith him guiding me through.Insyaallah.Thats all for now.Update again when im free.I seriously need to repair my laptop.I need to change my specs.If not that pakcik A will surely nagged at me.Tk pasal2 aku kene hantar pat hougang nye chalet.Haha. Hougang chalet?? Haha.I know he know u dont know can already. :))
The Story Of You & Me
9:15 PM.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
So many things happening this few days.And i know its my fault.Ive hurt someone feelings.Im really sorry.From the first time i knew him,i only treat him as a friend.Not more than that.I admit i do need him at times.I do miss him at times. But just as a friend and not more than that.But i never knew you would fall in love with me.If last time you made me comfortable with you,but right now, u made me feel scared.I never knew you would do that to me.I thought you understand and respect me.But because you yearn for something that you really wanttill you forget about what i feel.If you think doing that shows your love towards me than i have to sayyou are wrong my dear friend.I nvr asked for all that.We are living in two different world.We totally have a different mindset.I cant understand you and you will nvr understand me.Im really sorry for hurting you.Maybe yesterday will be the last meeting for both of us.Please leave me and forget me.I just pray that you will find your own happiness soon.Please you are not a loser.Im sorry. :(Anyway me and him are together again.Ill update more next time alright.Got to get back to school stuff now. :)
The Story Of You & Me
9:34 AM.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
In a confusion state of mind right now.Haiz.I wish i never have to go through all this now.Its so tiring having to keep thinking about unnecessary stuff.But what to do.Like he once said, the more we dont want to think about it,the more our heart made us think.So how? :(We contact each other yesterday.I dont know why.Sometimes i just need him.Somehow this little feeling says i just have to wait for him.But what if history repeats itself again?We have made alot of promises.But noon has been fulfill yet.And i dont know why, this heart is very certainhe's my fate.Maybe not for now but hmm. Im just confused.If only i know who my fate is, i wouldnt be so-confused right now.Tell me then what should i do.
The Story Of You & Me
8:22 AM.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Well, everything ends today.There's no more 'him' in my life now.I guess he's not my fate.Aku redha dengan semua yang terjadi.Insyaallah aku dapat menghadapi semua ini dengan hatiyang tabah.Amin.Well I never go to school today.I have to babysit 2 ladies in my house.My mum and my older sister. Haha.But now I ended up getting their sickness.How cool is that?Well, I did asked for it. Weird eh.I dont mind going through all this instead of them.I cant bear to see my mum cried because of her headache just now.Hopefully, they both get well soon.My head seriously hurts. Non-stop.And i know im going to fall sick any moment.I think because i shed too many tears just now.Nanie got to be strong ok! :)Well, I have so much things to do.Might not going to blog for this few days.Oh ya. My throat getting bigger and bigger.Why eh? :(
The Story Of You & Me
8:37 PM.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Everything seems wrong.
And i seriously dont know what to do.
Just treat it like nothing's ever happen.
Will that solve everything?
Im tired. I seriously tired.
How much more tears must I shed over you?
Im not that strong lah.
Why must this heart be hurt again and again?
I hate having into relationship.
I just hate it.
If you think we cant worked things out.
If you think you cant meddle between relationship and work,
please! please leave me.
Im confused la.
I cant possibly asked for it.
Cause Im not that type of person.
I would rather you asked for it and break my heart
rather than me breaking your heart.
Astaghfirullah.For the time being, i dont want to think about this.If you think staying like this would be the best way,then by all means.I dont want to pick up a fight.I dont want misunderstanding occurs between us.I dont want sadness to fill our relationship.I just want you to be happy.Thats all.My mum has been sick lately.And I have to take care of her.Im all stressed up with school stuff lately.And my head hurts even more.So I just dont want to think about all this unnecessary thingsfor the time being.I feel that my condition becoming worst.Let it be then.
The Story Of You & Me
11:16 PM.
Im going crazy! Yes. C.R.A.Z.Y!All because of him!Astaghfirullah.Ya Allah, Kau tenangkanlah hati hambaMu ini. Amin.Meeting him for the very first time yesterday before going to work.Woke up early morning to send Shasha to religious school.Then headed to POSB at Bangkit to change my ATM Card.Then meet him at Fajar LRT at 9.45am.We headed to LOT1 for breakfast at LJS.So much things to talk eh.And guess what?I think im so eager to meet him until I forgot to eat my medicine.Not even bring them?!Get negged by him of course!'U nk kene tapak tangan ke tapak kaki?'I just shook my head and smile.Haha. After that walked around before going to Arcade.Soon its time for me to go.We then took 190.But alighted at Tanglin CC bus stop.Haiz. Lesser time spending with each other.But what to do.We live so far yet still within Singapore la.As usual. I will be very quiet when each time there's a so called 'separation'.Cause im always scared.Scared that I wouldnt be able to meet him again.Who knows thats the last meeting for us?No one knows accept Allah.Allah Maha Mengetahui.Well, right now, I just felt something's not right.Why must i feel this way?Why must negative thoughts started to linger on my mind?Please go away. I dont need it.Neither do i have the strength to get it out of my mind.Can it just go away on its own?I really need him. I really do.But. Haiz. This makes me crazy. I hate it!Astaghfirullah.
The Story Of You & Me
11:16 PM.
Friday, January 2, 2009
I just cant wait for tomorrow.Hopefully this time, dengan keizinan tuhan,we will be meeting each other for the very first time.Hehe. Well.Most of you or should I say ALL of you might be wondering.Who is the 'him' im referring to.Oh. Thats a big secret ive been keeping to myself for the past few days.Want to know? Ask me then. Alrights?Anyway,I wanted to apologise to Nad.I really cant take off on the 10th.Tried to talk to my supervisor but of no use.I really feel so bad.I really dont know what to do.You planned so many things and tried to make it a successful onebut i kind of spoiling it.Im so sorry.Haiz. How eh? :(
The Story Of You & Me
6:58 PM.
