Monday, September 28, 2009
All alone at home right now.
As mother went raya with all the makciks2.
Simply nothing and no mood to do anything right now.
Oh wells,
Having off yesterday but just spent the whole day rotting at home.
Yesterday funny things happened.
I was madly in love with this Hari Raya song, Bergema Takbir by 4U2C.
At the same time, while watching Salam Lebaran 2009,
this song were sang by Ezad, Adi Putra and Syed Azmir.
Aku dengan semangat ikut sekali uhh kan nyanyi lagu tu.
Sampai tangan2 aku semua naik2,
sekali ada orang ucapkan salam uh.
Rupenye makcik aku uhh datang beraya.
Haha. U never know how the malu I was at that point of time.
Somemore 3 hansem guys were there too.
Alahai. Malu sehh guey.
I was msging MOZ late night till I fell asleep while msging.
I was awake by his another msg, "Good night n sweet dreams to u."
I knew I was typing something and manage to send it before I started to doze off again.
Just a few minutes ago, I went to delete my send messages
when I read the last msg I send him.
I had a great laugh at the message that I send him.
Guess what I reply? Dont laughh okk?? :P
"Selamat Hari Raya to u uon(too). Im off to sleep alrsdy."
Hahaha. Kekek pe sehh.
I was using dictionary all these while, thats explain all those weird2 spelling.
This is what happen when U were half dead but still have the cheeks to reply to people msges.
Haha. Nyanyok sehh nanie.
Malu nyeeeee!
Ok stop it! Dont laugh! =P
Yesterday fatty snoring calling me.
2 task for me to do right now.
And Im soooo not in the mood to do them at this moment.
He wants me to find out how many syllabus covered for e math o lvl next yr
cause he wants to retake eng n math o lvl next yr
and so I'll be tutoring him for math.
Ive to plan on how many days needed to cover 1 syllabus.
Next task was, he wants me to jot down in details about my future.
What I want to do after graduation, what job, expected salary, expenses and everthing.
Oh Nooooo! >.< I felt uneasy after Maghrib that I decided to go out for awhile. Walking around Bukit Panjang area just to relax my mind. Bringing Nana along with me. At that point of time I just wish I could go to Changi Park to play the swing over there. If not because of MOZ who brings me to Changi Park, I wouldnt know that swing still 'exist'. =P.jpg)
We seems becoming even closer and closer.
But it seems like there's something lacking between us.
Is it Love? Trust?
There's this weird feeling when you mention something like that.
Am I jealous?
Have I realy fall in love with you?
Even though my heart keeps denying and not having hopes on you?
I love you, Mr Snoring. <3
The Story Of You & Me
2:50 PM.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
UPDATES!1st DAY RAYAMy family went out for raya only at 6 plus.Went to my late grandma's sis house.Not so much of a huuu haaa thingy this raya.Everything seems different eversince my grandma passed away.Simply said, this raya was kind of a plain one though.Went to only 2 houses.2nd house we went to was my mum's brother.His house sure filled with all those huuu haaa noises.Especially now having football matches.My pakcik is so enthu with Man Utd.Usually the young ones would make the loudest remarkBut in his house, he was the most loudest and enthu onesinstead of my cousins who were there watching as well.Simply said, its kecoh-rable uhh. =))2nd DAY RAYAWent to 6 houses.Nothing much to talked about.Last house when to my aunt house at Yew Tee.There, we watched Kuntilanak 3 at Sensasi till 12am.As usual, my sis will be the 1st person to run far2 away from the tv. Haha.*Just 2 days n 2 of my pakciks been making these same remarks"Why this year, the younger sister gain weight but the elder sister looks slimmer?Urrggghh! One mission have yet to accomplish --> Lose weight!Anyhoots, I SIMPLY LAZY TO UPLOAD PICS. ^.^I hate it! I hate it!I guess no raya outings with friends this year.Simply because Ive to meddle between work and FYP.Tsk Tsk. Super the sedih. :'(Both need me urgently.And I had no choice but to sacrifice my time for the important ones.Will be working straight till school reopens.And I only have 3 days off before school starts. >.<U all might just go raya outings without me then.I'll update on my schedule for the month of Oct soon.Who knows if you still want a raya outing,u might selit me in any timeslot yang u think boleh diselitkan.What am I talking? Ok whatever.So yah. Will update again soon. =))I miss you Bestie Nad.Will be meeting you later soon! =))And lastly to Mr Snoring,Im proud of him the same way he do. I admire his self-driven and self-motivation.Having 3 jobs are tough but since he convinced me he can handle it,I'll continue to support him.Missing him right now as 1 month plus we didnt met.I was hoping we could spent time with each other more often.No one knows when. If gods willing, we'll able to meet. =)Just have to be patient. :)*When I need you, I'll just have to close my eyes, imagine that you are here right beside me.
The Story Of You & Me
11:45 PM.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Just to let out.At times I realised I wasnt ready for this r/s.At times I felt he wasnt the right one for me.I never had any hopes or dreams when being with himI never asked for this r/s in the first place.But why am I torturing myself to just go with the flow?I might be crazy to even torture myself with all these.I was wondering how would it be like to be hurt once again.Its been a long time since I once faced all those hurtful moments.How hurtful would it be this time round if the r/s fails?I tried to trust him but I just couldn't.There's still doubts in him which I dont even know the reasons why.Never did I once controlled him nor get mad at him for any wrongs.Neither do I questioned him for something that I get to know long time ago.Though I really wanted to know the truth from his mouth himself.Scared that misunderstanding occur that I chose to keep everything deep inside.No matter how he convinced me, I would never be able to trust him.We never seems like other couples.We never met nor contact each other that often.We seldom joke around nor share our feelings.I know our love is not that strong as compared to his love towards his ex or maybe his timer.I dont wanna jump into conclusion in saying all these cause Ive yet to know the truth.I was hoping he would be sincere enough to tell me something.Something that's always been questioning my mind.Who is she to you?And who am I to you?I had these feeling that he wasnt the right one for me.But I chose to stay and be with him.Cause why, besides his weaknesses, there's still strengths in him.He would share everything with me.Whenever he's happy, sad, angry, he would call me up.And I appreciate that. At least im still in his thoughts.He's been my motivator who never fails to motivate me to study.He's an advisor who always advise me on studies, life and love.He never fails to share for something that he had experience before or learned.At times he would share his feelings, cracked jokes and calm me down whenever Im feeling down.Despite everything, I just feel I couldnt let him go.I'll leave everything for HIM to decide.Let fate decide everything.I dont have the right to stop him from doing anything.Though Ive yet to feel the love from him.Ive yet to trust him.Ive yet to accept him fully in my life,What I know I just couldnt bear to let him go.Its all because I started to love him even more each day.
The Story Of You & Me
10:09 PM.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Just wanna wish all muslims,
Salam Aidilfitri!
Maaf Zahir Batin!Mr Snoring, I miss you!Congratulations my dear =))
The Story Of You & Me
10:16 PM.
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