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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Ok. Im sad now.
Getting result just now.
And i done very2 badly.
Yea. Expecting.
Because i just couldnt manage my time
on working and schooling.
Ive found the answer already by just looking at the grades.
Utter dissappointed.
Im quiting VE! :'(

The Story Of You & Me
11:04 AM.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Assalamualaikum peepz.
Hmm. Now 2.09am.
And i still have not sleep yet. Haiz.
Something bothering me, really bothers me.
I want to cry cann??
Issit about rashidin? Or others?
Let me share everthing here.

I dont know if what i do a gd or a bad thing.
What im doing right now, this pass few days,
is indeed tortures me.
I tried to stop loving him.
Because i realize that loving him,
even makes me heartbroken.
I dont know whats inside his heart.
But i feel. Hmm. Ntahlah.
And i control the misses i had towards him.
He nvr msg, i dont even make a move 1st to msg him.
Like what i always do.
Its better this way. Hmm.
But i cant deny that i really2 miss him so much. :'(

Next thing. Someone whom im aware had feelings for me
since we were in sec 2.
I was walking back hm after work.
And usually would took the stairs at the new
badminton court near my house.
And there's always a bunch of guys lepak-ing there.
As usual, i always walk while listening to music.
Selembe jek uh jln.
Then i heard someone called my name.
Yes. Its him.
His friends was like teasing him.
He walked me home.
I can feel he abit shy.
Its the first time talking face to face and2,
i began to look him up as a bro who can protect me wherever i go.
But i know on the other hand, he dont think that way.
We chat with each other just now.
And2 he's trying to win my heart.
Sorry. I cant.
I know he dont give up on getting me,
but just that there's no feelings towards him.
Or maybe it will nvr happen.

I guess right now, my heart is already closed.
Its up to them uh if they want to call me,
not being understanding or even trying to torture them or what.
Because i myself know what im doing.
Once bitten twice shy.
The heart wont easily healed.
Im sorry guys.

Hmm. Thats all i guess.
Sometimes i wish im rich.
So that i could bought a ticket to anywhere
that is more peaceful and relaxing my mind.
Hmm. :'(

The Story Of You & Me
2:08 AM.

Friday, February 22, 2008

5 days nvr blogging uh.
Haha. Busy working la katakan.
Ya. As i stated in the few entry that i got job
at takashimaya.
And yah. Ive to work 1.30-9.30pm everyday.
Supposing, i told them i cant work on fri and sun.
Saje2 la. Lazy to work everyday.
But2, i was told to work on sun cause
not enough people.
Anw, the work is ok la.
Just that my leg pain la.
Imagine standing up for 8 hrs??
Haha. But2, its my 1st time, so its normal to have leg pain.
But hopefully, it will not be so pain.
Will get to use to it one day.

They actually have 4 stores.
2 at takashimaya.
1 at Wisma Isetan.
1 is at scotts at shaw house there.
Working at takashimaya is ok.
Quite a lot of customers.
But its boring la because i was the only one
station at the store if i were to work at the department.
Tau2 je lerr. Idont really talk to people right.
Got talked but most of the time no.
But if i were to station at wisma.
Watha. Boring giler la seyy.
Not many customer. Less than 10?
Somemore we only sold leggings and sock.
And2 our place is far inside.
People also dont really walk2 all the way inside.
And2 somemore, the time its like so lambat la.
And2, 2mrw is my unlucky day.
I have to station there. Know for how long?
10 hrs la deyy. 11am-9.30pm.
Wahh. Blllaaasssttt!
Cannot take it man. Haiyo.
Pls. Help me. =( tsk tsk.

Hmm. Im kind of begin to feel insan yg bernama ibu.
I understand what my mum go through.
I heard yesterday, thelast 2 days,
my lil sis, nana bite this one girl mouth.
I dont know if its true or not la.
Somemore the teacher said the girl terhantuk sendiri.
Hmm. Ntahla. Then the girl father like angry already.
Ask the mum to confront my mum.
And like that its ok la.
But what i cant accept is, she go around telling people.
Thats unfair seyy.
Its between she and my mum,
what for telling2 people. Nonsense.
If u think ehk. They are just kids what.
Just because of their children, mother's argued?
Haiz. When my mum told me everything,
i can feel the sadness and the pain she's having now.
I can saw her tears eventhough she tried to hide it.
Whatever it is,
if the father wanna confront my mum,
i'll make sure i'll be there. Just watch it uh.

Anw to my bestie, nadiah.
=) Hope u enjoyed on sat.
Haha. I guess she has wrote everything at her blog.
Got time, go read.
Shall not elaborate more. =)
I love you fren. =)

Aik. Many story la i want to share.
Hehe.
This is something that always been my weakness.
Helping someone to do projs, etc.
To shorten the story, ive broke someone promises.
Yes. My promise to Rashidin.
He will scol me for sure if he knows i do everything for sal again.
My god. I just couldnt stand for my right.
Haish. Dont ever let him know.
If not he dont want to talk to me again.
There goes nag nag nag! hahai.

Ok lah.
Kite da mls nk type lagi.
Happy2 selalu.
Ok wait. Before i forget.
Barang sesiapa yang ada lagu "Seribu Kenangan"
nyanyian oleh didicazli, dia harus send pada saya.
Terima kasih =)
Hehehe. Ok bye!

The Story Of You & Me
3:35 PM.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Eating that medicine really
makes me sleepy la seyy.
The white tablet are meant for my thyroid thingy.
I had to eat 6 tablets in the morning everyday.
After i ate that surely makes me feel sleepy.
Shitoss! Hahai.
Tomorrow is the day. Haha.
Felt so scared suddenly.
Hope everything went well. Fuuhh.

Anw, ysdae night me and his mum msg each other.
As usual i will always wait for his msg.
And like ysdae no msg from him.
Since his hp has send for repair,
there's no other ways to msg him
except his mum hp.
I was told he hasnt came back hm.
Even his mum worries him, he like dont really care.
Haish.

ME : Ok. If he came back hm already, cik msg me k.
If cik da nk sleep then its ok. =)
HER : Ah la. Mcm u tktau jek immediately he reach hm
he will kol u kan.

Haha. Cute seyy his mum say like that.
I was like, "Uh? Ntah." Haha.
Malu la seyy. *blushing*
Ok2. Msg his mum until 2am.
I was like just waiting.
Can sense that he will msg me.
I look at the hp, its 2.22am.
Ok. Wait2 until i suddenly woke up.
I look at my hp, 5.30am.
There's 1 missed called from his mum hp.

I slept again and woke up at 6.30am.
I msg his mum asking whether
she was the one calling me.
She said no and it was him who called me.
Guess what time it is? 2.26am?
Its like 4 mins after i look at my hp.
Haish. I wasnt meant to call him that morning.
Haha. Nvm2.
I'll make sure i wont sleep while waiting for him.
Hopefully he will msg me early.
Im right here waiting for you rashidin.
Haha. Ceh2. Came paham uh nani. =)

Okla. My head suddenly pain.
I cant wait for 2mrw.
I can sense its like wow! =)
I'll update again 2mrw.
Toodoles peeps. =)

The Story Of You & Me
10:42 PM.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Happy2 la seyy.
I down 1 more to go.
Know what? I intend to find 3 jobs.
I had one which is VE, and another one is at Takashimaya.
Yea. I went for interview at my sis workplace.
Err. Should i say not interview.
Were asked what day can i work, what shift, etc.
And2 i had to come on mon.
Work from 1.30pm-8.30pm.
Wahh2. Happy la seyy. Interview on mon.
Hmm. So i had this job already.
Next my mission is to go NTUC and register myself
to be a tutor.
I heard it from my abg sedare.
So i'll asked him more detailed abt it. =)

My sis and mum said im crazy to work 3 jobs.
They keep saying, "U think u guy uh?"
Haha. Of course not la.
Just that i said to them, "this is an opportunity
since im not schooling. So why not?"
Hee. Ya. I know im crazy.
But just that whats on my mind right now
i wanna pay for my own bills.
Dont wanna be a burden to my dad.

I can feel that he just dont like me saying nonsense.
As in likewhenever i think megarut,
he surely start being sarcastic to me.
Like yesterday, i said to him,
"I know where i stand"
Then he said, "Where u stand?
Now u sit or stand up? Sit right.
So why u said that?"
See. Hmm.
Bt despite that, he dont really angry with me.
He always correct me in anyway
whenever i do wrong or think nonsense-ly.
I nvr regret knowing someone like him. =)

Okla. Its time for me to eat my medicine.
Haha. Ok bye!

The Story Of You & Me
10:34 PM.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

I feel sad cann??
I feel jealous cann??
Boring! -.-
In LRT just now, i saw a few girls had flowers with them.
Aww. I dont have la seyy.
And its like my sis also bring back a flowers and bear2.
Geram la seyy.
Nvr had flower from any1 b4.
Anw, 2dae marked the 1st valentine i had.
Yesterday i had a conversation with him.

ME : So you nvr celebrate valentine with anyone?
HE : No lah. Then you?
ME : Got.
HE : Thats gd! With who?
ME : Doctor lerr. Hehe.
HE : Oh ya. I forgot u got appt with doc.
So did the doc give u any gifts or flowers, etc?
ME : Yup. He gives me medicine uh. Haha.
HE : Oh so the not cool he is.

Haha. Yah.
Just now i went to polyclinic.
And i really had that illness.
And its like i have to eat medicine la seyy.
Nah! Amek kw nanie!
Tk suke mkn ubat la kann.
Now u have to eat that everyday.
Serve u right!

Anw, yesaterday convo was like kind of fun la.
We all the way talked in english.
And was like he call me DUMB!
Just because my eng not good la kann.
Yela. Kate dpt D7 la kann. Haha.

HE : Batu belah batu bertangkup. Kalau bodoh,
ME : Pergilah masok.

Haha. And we both was like laughing.
And he told me thats the phrase he going to say.
And was like as if i already know what he going to say.
Padahal, its just strike into my head to say that.
Hahai.

He asked to call him using his mum hp
and told that he got something urgent to tell me.
And at that point of time, my heart beats really fast.
I called him uh.

HE : U. Actually i got something to tell u. But dont be sad la.
ME : Ok. What is it?
HE : Can we like dont contact each other for 3-4 mths?
ME : Y?
HE : I just want to be alone for the time being.
ME : (I kept quiet)
HE : Is it ok with u?
ME : I kept quiet. And while that, my tears rolling.
HE : U. Dont cry la. Its not worth it because uve been phunked!

Actually when i cried, i dont want him to hear.
But he just can feel it. Hahai.
I just kept quiet all the way.
He knows how to make me laugh. =')

Lalala. At last i got the ans from him
Something really bothers me.
And i just tell him la kan what ive been
thinking this few days.
Then he told me la the truth.
I wasnt sad anymore or wasnt that happy la.
Because i myself know where i stand.
Hmm. I always keep that in mind.

Anw, here's the medicine given to me.

This is to ease down my nervousness and heart beat.

This is to helps my thyroid thingy.

The Story Of You & Me
11:32 PM.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

ROHANI rindu RASHIDIN la seyy. )=
My nose is bleeding again.
Ok. Bye. =D

The Story Of You & Me
11:13 PM.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Assalamualaikum. =)
Just now i went out with him.
As usual, lib is the place.
Yah. I meet him at wdlnds lib at 1pm.
We find a good place to settle down.
Then2, he open some songs from his hp.
As usual. Jiwangz habesan. =)
Then on laptop. Waliao.
Dont know whats wrong with all the virus2 thingy
and keeps popping out WinxDefender la, Antivirus la.
But luckily can still used the internet uh.
Everytime when he press wrongly,
he will like "errhhhmmm"

I kind of bored cause he using the laptop,
and i dont have anything to do.
So i ask for his hp wanna browse his songs.
I bluetooth to my hp certain songs.
Then sum1 called me. She. Yes, she called me.
She was asking abt my mums attitude just now.
Because i dont know la suddenly ysdae my mum
lock herself up in the room, not letting
my father in.
And she keeps nagging and nagging on the phone,
until like i hold the phone faraway from my ears.
U know what, it was loud la seyy.
Until Rashidin can heard her too.

Whispering.
HE : Who?
ME: My aunt lah.
HE : Ouhh. Popetpopet? (Hand signal)
ME: (I nod only)
HE : Give me ur phone.

Then i just give him.
Know what he did?
He placed the phone in between us.
Then i picked it up back uh.
He saw me like kind of stress. He making funny faces.
Until making me laugh instead of feeling unhappy
hearing the same thing that my sunt was saying.
At last we hung up.
He making me laugh all day.
And he cant even sit still.
Baring sini baring sana.
Golek sini golek sana.
Sumore not many people there,
so he can do that freely uh.

Around 3.30pm we packed2,
then we go off from the lib.
He sent me to the outside bus stop.
Not at the wdlnd interchange uh.
From lib we walked all the way there.
With him, i dont even feel tired.
Because all the way,
he sing2 with emotions. Nice voice.
Until there is this old lady walk the same route as us.
She smile at me and at him also.
Then she said, "Happy uh u both."
She keeps smiling all the way. Haha.

Then when we reach the bus stop,
waiting for the bus. 963 or 966 uh.
Then came 963.
He said la bus coming but i just ignore and sat there.
3 bus if 963 has passed. And 1 966 bus.
Haha. But i just sat there only.
He pon just ignore jek uh.
Then the 4th bus came den i board.
He was like ignore jek seyy.

Then i msg him. Kind of tk puas hati.

ME: Aik. relek jek org g uat bdh.
HE : I uat bdh? Kurang ajar ehk. I angkat tgn i uat bdh.

Haha. I said to him sorry many times.
Because he like when i say sorry to him.
Dont know what so good of saying sorry. Haha.

Anw, 1st time i talked to him on the phone
for like nearly 3 hrs?? Haha.
It was ysdae uh.
11.45pm until 2.30am.
He just cam back form soccer and was like
share with mi his soccer life story.
When finish suddenly he said to me this,
"U. I told u about my story already. Ur turn la to share"
I really dont know seyy.
So he asked me to share abt my love life.
So only for that day i opened back the history.
From A to Z.
Until i met him. And we kind of share abt our feelings
that we had all these days, etc.
I really love him alot. :'(

Ok la. Lazy to write somemore.
=) Nytes everyone.

The Story Of You & Me
10:44 PM.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Yesterday as quite a boring and happy day la.
It marked my aunt and uncle 16th yrs anniversary.
My mum was asked to cook asam pedas ikan.
Alot uh. 1 big periuk.
But2, yg tk best nye, only a few families jek cmg.
Boring.
Its like inviting berpuluh2 org,
only like 7 families come? Watha.
My mum, sis, abg fit and me in-charge of the kitchen.
Mcm kendarat la plak.
Goreng ni goreng tu. Hidang ni hidang tu.
Susun ni susun tu. Afterall, its fun lah.

But 1 thing that makes me sad lah.
Know what? My aunt suka my sis lebih.
Because can say, she kind of close to her
while im not lah because im a quiet person.
So my sis came later because she's working.
And was like everthing i do, mcm tk betol la, etc.
When my sis came,
she was asked to cut this putri salad.
Se cut nicely2 and placed them in e mangkuk.
My aunt then came in and say
"Pandai seh ayu. Nasib baik la ada ayu kalu tk..."
I was like duhh!
I know la i do cooking mcm kekok. Haiyo.
Then2 came my auncle families.
But we still haven finish yet.
Haha. So tired.
And my stomach cramp.
Go toilet so many times.

Then its time for maghrib prayers.
And this little boy, i dont know what age,
he do the azan and qamat.
His voice so sweet. Serious!
I even record his voice.
Everyone was like looking at im.
And i heard he's studying at Madrasah Aljunied.
Ok sweet! =)

Then eat2, etc.
Then came bibik titik.
She very funny. Know why?
She took rice and 1 dishes. Its like so little la.
And came my aunt asking her why so little?
Know what she say?
"Adik mane tau mkn lauk campur2."
Haha. Then was like there are 3 dishes.
She eat 3 times with different dish. Haha.
And2she perm her hair.
To me its was messy la.
I dont think i can adapt to the curly2 hair.
So rimas man! Haha.
Then faez was like asking, "rambut ape sey tu?"
Den bibik cakap, "rambut palsu!" Haha.
Funny2. Everyone look like her mcm nk mkn.
So enough of that,
And we went hm around 12 plus.
So tired i straightaway sleep.
And i was awake.
Searching for my hp and it was like 6.30am.
I slept again and woke up 10.30am.
Ishk2. Penat nampak Nani?? Hee.
So thats about it.

Anw2.
He din msg me the whole of ysdae.
Haha.
U know what, he msg me ysdae morning 3am.
Know what he says??
"u leh kol?"
Ive sleeping already la seyy.
Then in the morning i msg him uh.
"Sori tk rep. Da tdo la. Btw, asl lum tdo2 lagi kul 3?
Lain kali alik keje penat g tdo jek.
I understand."
So i think mayb because i said that,
then he nvr msg me. Haha.
Mcm2 la dia.
Anw, IMU la. =)
Takkaires alright.

The Story Of You & Me
3:08 PM.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

I always regret when i talk back at sum1.
I like being sarcastic to people who test patience.
But right, after all, i think, im not regret.
Because 18 yrs of living.
And i guess im too kind to people
until they took that as an advantage.

Actually i wanna talk back.
But something holding me back.
If i keep quiet, doesnt mean
all this will come to an end.
Butif talked back also i know,
it will nvr end.
So why not just talked back? True?
Hahaha. Ok2. j.j

My loved ones also told me dont let people
take your kindness as an advantage.
I still remember.
After madrasah la if im not wrong.
Me and Nad sat at fjr lrt.
Talked2. Until i shared with her la.
I always do this and that for Sal.
And she said i shouldnt do that.
Because, im too kind.
Thats why she will nvr stop asking me to do
things for her.
Even rashidin, scolded me.
Ask me to fight for my right
and dont be treated like a maid uh.
He even said dont talk to him if he gets to know
about this again.

So i say everything here can??
Let that person read btol2.

"I dont know if i know u or not.
Because u are so kental of not revealing urself.
But i dont care about that.
But right now, i dont think u should meddle with my life.
Even if i nvr wear tudung or what,
i think its none of ur business.
Cause its between me and Allah.
And i must say ur not HIM right?
So even if i done sin, i think,
it doesnt get u into trouble.
Lain lah kalau aku tk kai, kw masok penjara pe.
Atau kw tanggung dosa aku ke.
Atau kw boleh mati pe.
Tk kan? So? It doesnt concern u la. Get it?
So right now, if u dont have any better things to do,
u can do like what nad suggested.
Uat amal uh. Lebih pahala dan faedah.
Ada paham??
I think this should be enough to tell u what i mean.
But if u still wants to be kepo,
nk besar2 kan hal aku dgn sape2,
its better u come to me.
Cause all that doensnt concern anyone
but concern me. Ada paham? "

Ok thats all about it.
Bye.

The Story Of You & Me
10:56 AM.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Yesterday right, we family right,
go ECP tau tau tau.
This is the pics taken there. =)

Me n SiS. OuR oWn wInDoW. =)

WiT MuM. FaT??

RoHaNi*RaHaYu*RaIhAnAh =)

OuR LeGs! FuLL oF sAnD. =)

WiT HaKiM ToO! =D

The Story Of You & Me
3:51 PM.

I guess ive been thinking too much.
I always hope that history
will nvr repeat itself again.
Thats the greatest fear for me.
I really scared of losing someone i loved,
i care and always in my heart.

Yes. Lucky it was CNY.
And that everyone off today.
Just now at 10.45pm, he msg me.
Asked me to call him. Hmm.
So i did call.
Eventhough i felt that i dont want.
I wanna torture him plak la kan.
But2, tk sampai hati lah.
We talked2 until 12am.
Im happy hearing his voice.

He : I really missed talking to u seyy
Me : Oh. Ingt lupe. Iyela. Bz nan kerja la katekan.

I merely being sarcastic. Haha.
Throughout, he's making me laugh.
Skejap2 jadi rashidin, skejap2 jadi professor din,
skejap2 jadi 99 cents. Whats up nigga?? Haha.

I understand he's working.
Sometimes kesian ada.
Yela. Last time he such a lazy bum.
But now working like so hard,
until no time to eat, etc.
And he did has the same mindset as me.
Cause that time i got once told sha
that hmm. I dont want to call him
when like its only for awhile la.
Cause really, its not worth.
Puas hati jgn call terus. True?
So just the first thing he said to me was,
"SORRY".

He : Sorry that i nvr contact u for quite long.
Im busy working. I did want to ask u to call me,
but its like if we can talk only for awhile,
then whats the point of calling.

Ok. So thats y, i felt that i keep thinking abt myself.
As though i dont understand him.
Yea. S now i know the reason.
And i felt i shouldnt have think too much.
How selfish can u be nani?? Haiz.

"Rashidin, ive been missing u all this while.
And its like really torturing me.
I dont want to be left again.
Because i wants to be with u. Only u.
How i wish u could be there
and know whats really in my heart =( "

The Story Of You & Me
12:25 AM.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Err. Uhh. Hmm. Hee. Huu. Haa.
Eee. Arh. Ohh. Erm. Aaa. Lol.
Mmm. Gee. Doo. Ree. Mii. Faa.
Soo. Laa. Tii. Doo. Wat. Eva.

Haha. Ok, Nanie is sort today.
Simply because she is sort. Ya!
Nanie is sort. Yes. She is sort.
Haha. Ok2. Stop it Nanie!
Jgn suka2 sngt, nanti nangis!
Hee. Yah. Itu lah ayat yg sering
di gunakan oleh org tua kita.
Ada paham? Haha.
Hmm. End of all this crap ok?? =)

Anw, nad! sori tk dpt jumpe kamu
ini hari. Cause i need to go office 4while.
Hmm. But since nothing to do.
So i went out with zaf to CWP.
Shopping Shopping Shopping!
But not me la.
I only shopping at SHORT JOHN GOLD!
Ada paham? Ooops. Sorry.
LONG JOHN SILVER LAHH! =)
Haisshh.
Niat di hati tknk berpisah. Apakan daya.
Ehk. Salah2. Haha.
Niat di hati nk mkn nasi. Apakan daya,
foodcourt da tutup la deyy! Haha.
Yela. Understand understood.
CHINESE NEW YEAR la katakan.
Kalau boleh semua benda dia mau tutup.
Tapi itu la.
Nak pikir untung jugak la kan.
Org melayu kita sanggup bukak beb!
Haha.

Anw,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
to all chinese people!

Seems that some of them knows
what ive been through.
Ya. Indeed everything seems fine.
But just one thing.
IM STILL A FAILURE IN EVERY R/S!
AKU GAGAL DLM PERCINTAAN!
But2, in every failure, there's always
some lesson that can be learn from.

1STLY
Dont ever put high hopes on that person,
cause if one day he will left u, u are the one heartbroken
not him.

2NDLY
Dont fall for their sweetness talk
cause thats all BULLSHIT??!!

Err. i think thats all uh.
Cause everything kind of
also falls onto either this 1 category la uh.
So yah. Itu aje.
Hope u guys have fun!
Esp chinese peeps.
Enjoys alright??!! =)

The Story Of You & Me
12:23 AM.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

I guess the only way for me
to stop thinking about him is to.
GET MYSELF BUSY! ARRRGGGGHH!
Ya. Get myself busy arh.
I keep thinking about it all day.
And i guess, all this a distraction to me.
So ive made up my mind just now.
And i said to myself
"Come on Nani. Its wasting ur time
thinking about him! Y not u do sumtin
that keeps u busy always?"

Im gonna keep myself busy nih.
Anyway, i got a new rec just now.
And yah. He's joining us!
Thanks2 MR YUNI! (:
So right now, i wanna concentrate
on my downlines.
And i wanna make sure, u guys
will get to go GENTING TRIP on MARCH!
Yoohoo. Yea. FREE BABY!!
Provided we meet a certain criteria. (:

One more thing, i wanna share.
Ysdae i went to cck polyclinic.
Supposingly, im the one who
needs to see doc.
But2, its coincidence that nana had rashes
and2 shasha had an asthma.
So me,nana,shasha,ibu and bibik
went to polyclinic.
Asu know, my neck got something wrong.
It was like last yr since i have t.
But i kind of lazy to see doc.
Know Know jek la ehk.
Wasting money man!!
But2, i guess my mum has been nagging at me
i dont know how many times.
Tk terkira la oii!! Haha.
So, 2 stop being nag again, so i just went.
And2, the doc says maybe i got thyroid.
Ya. T.H.Y.R.O.I.D! Haha.
So she ask me to have a blood test then.

Fuhh. U know, long time already
i nvr go for blood test.
n n u know the thing.
Ala the thing tu yg cocok amek darah kita.
Tau tk? Hah! Tu la. Jarum tu. Haha.
My aunt was like keep saying tu me,
"dont shout! just bear with it!"
At the end, when the doc inject me,
u know how my face look like or not?
CRAMP LA SEYY! Haha.
Tapi tkde satu benda pon keluar dr mulut.
Agaknye sebab, da kene warning
dgn bibik kot jgn pekik. Haha.
So yah. I was asked to come back on 14 feb,
to see the result.
Whether i got that illness or not.
Hahai. Somehow, even if i know
i prone to get some illnesses,
but i just dont fel scared at all.
I dont know why. Haiz.

Kla. I guess, thats all that i wanna share.
Toodoles everyone.

*Rashidin, whatever that may happens,
i get ready for the consequences.
Whether im gonna lose u or whatsoever,
aku akan menerimanya dgn tabah.
Insyaallah. Walaupon ia akan menyakitkan
hati ini sekali lagi. :'( "

The Story Of You & Me
10:48 PM.

All i wanna do now is to
CRY! CRY! CRY!
I dont know why.
But i really miss him.
I MISS RASHIDIN!! :'(

I tried to understand him.
I really do.
But somwhow i feel there's something
i ought to know.
There's something that he's hiding from me.
I can sense that.

Yes. Yesterday i did tell him everything
that i feel. We talked on the phone.

HIM : tadi u ckp nk beritahu i sesuatu?
ME : errr. yah. erm. i rase mcm ade sesuatu tk kene.
HIM : ape benda yg tk kene tu?
ME : yela. i msg u, tk rep. Hardly get 2 talk 2 u.
HIM : kan i kerja. Hmm.
ME : i faham tu!
HIM : abeh kalau i masok NS nanti, I tk rep msg u,
u nk fkr mcm gini jugak ker?
ME : hmm.

I understand he's working.
But dulu he's not like this.
Even if he tired or whatsoever,
he still msg me asking me 2 call him.
And when i ask him to sleep,
he say "later la. i wanna talk 2 u."

And now, not even 5 mins,
he say "okla. Anything i msg u."
I really dont know what to do.
He's torturing me la.
I cant take it already.
:'(

The Story Of You & Me
12:36 AM.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

I just dont know whats wrong with him.
He just so different this few days.
I msg he never reply.
I call, he picked up.
But only for less than 5 mins
when he say "Later i msg, u call ok?"
I just hang up the call.
And was like waited for him.
1pm? 2pm? 3pm?
There is no msg from him.
At last i slept. Too tired to wait.

I want to ask him.
But since he din give me a chance,
so how can i know
why he's been acting that way?
I dont have that answer.
Haiz. Maybe i got hurt him?
Or errr make him angry?
Errr. I dont really know.

Sometimes, i feel tortured with his doings.
Adakah aku amat mencintainya?
Atau sedakar tidak mahu persahabatan kita
tamat begitu sahaja?
"Ya allah, berkanlah kekuatan
pada diri hambamu yg lemah ini." :'(

The Story Of You & Me
9:51 PM.

Friday, February 1, 2008

I just kept thinking about it all day.
Its doesnt make me have a peace of mind
once i started to think about it.
About what i got to know yesterday itself.
It really hurts me deeply.
Someone whom i treat him as
an idol to me.

I respect him. I salute him.
Why? Because like his attitudes.
Penyabar, Penyayang.
But what ive got to know,
he has an affair outside.
I heard it from the other party.

I just couldnt believe he would do that.
She hold my hand tightly,
hugged me, crying.
Keep teling me she doesnt wanna
snatch him away.
I cried all the way.
Even when going to work.
I cried when i heard the word "..."
I hate him.
I lost trust in him.
Im dissapointed in him.
And i even embarassed to call him "..."

So people out there,
what will u feel if u are in my situation??
Im really sad. :'(

The Story Of You & Me
10:15 PM.