Friday, February 26, 2010
Just letting out my feelings.I wonder.Am I really feel jealous?Or am I just thinking too much?All along 'jealousy' wasnt in my dictionary of life.Despite knowing the fact, why am I feeling so different?Maybe I just think too much.Was just about to chase all those negative thoughts away.Or in fact, changing it to postive thoughts.Thought today was the best time to give the card thatIve been waiting all along to give.But that call, somehow or rather, holding me back.
I decided to hold on to it.
I choose to take things lightly despite
having some thoughts running through my mind.
Adapting to a new life was never an easy task.
But I choose to stay.
Im just tired having to go through all these.
But its just part and parcel of life.
2 months together and everything seems fine.
Though at times there might be hiccups here and there,
been trying the best to stay positive.
Though there maybe at times when anger or sadness filled the heart,
being quiet was the best thing to do.
Remembering all those words that he once said,
and all the times that we have spent together
plays a part too helping to calm me down.
On 2202, first time ever I saw that tears in his eyes.
Flashback memories of how we first met, the days when
he sent and fetch me from work,
he let out his feelings, we spent time together,
we celebrated our birthdays,
I took care of him,
and everything.
Just 2 months together, and we've been through alot of things.
And all that had happened, indeed brought us closer.
More to come in the future and I just hope we'll be able to pull through
every challenges or difficulties that come in our way.
Z.U.L.K.I.F.L.E.E S.H.A.H!
A special person that I wish to thank.
S.I.T.I N.U.R N.A.D.I.A.H
Thanks nad for everything especially today.
Never thought u would say that.
Im really blessed to have a bestfriend like you.
Thanks to Allah for giving me the chance to know you in my life.
The Story Of You & Me
11:47 PM.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Been quite some time since I last update my blog.
Ive been asked to blog so thats explains today's entry. =P
He's recovering from his injuries. Alhamdulillah.
Somehow, all that has happened brought us even closer
when I had to spend most of my time taking care of him.
I appreciate and cherish every single moments I had with him.
All those laughter, tears and scoldings I get from him.
And all those words that he expressed to me, I'll never forget that.
Everythings went fine and I hope to stay like this forever.
If not for each other support, trust and understanding, we'd never come this far.
Thank you LOVE for everything.
Been worried about something.
Perhaps about my health.
Losing my appetite lately.
Whenever I try to eat something, I felt like vomiting.
My neck becoming bigger.
Felt a little breathless at times.
As though something stuck on my neck which I finds it irrits!
Ive been talking nonsense lately too.
Telling my sis that I wont live long, etc.
I myself dont know why I could say such a thing.
Feeling uneasy all the time though there's nothing to think or worry about.
Zul told me not to think too much but I just couldnt.
I dont even know whats on my mind actually.
I guess everythings ended.
Keeping all this from him was a mistake and now I manage to let out everything,
I felt a little relieve but guilt still surrounds me.
You went quiet and I guess I'll take it as though u're able to accept everything.
You've been trying to protect me all this while and I really appreciate that.
Your advise and everything has indeed change my life.
But Im sorry. We cant go on like this forever.
I have Zul in my life now.
And I dont want any misunderstanding between us.
Its time to let go of the past and focusing on my present and future.
The Story Of You & Me
3:21 PM.
