Friday, February 19, 2010
Been quite some time since I last update my blog.
Ive been asked to blog so thats explains today's entry. =P
He's recovering from his injuries. Alhamdulillah.
Somehow, all that has happened brought us even closer
when I had to spend most of my time taking care of him.
I appreciate and cherish every single moments I had with him.
All those laughter, tears and scoldings I get from him.
And all those words that he expressed to me, I'll never forget that.
Everythings went fine and I hope to stay like this forever.
If not for each other support, trust and understanding, we'd never come this far.
Thank you LOVE for everything.
Been worried about something.
Perhaps about my health.
Losing my appetite lately.
Whenever I try to eat something, I felt like vomiting.
My neck becoming bigger.
Felt a little breathless at times.
As though something stuck on my neck which I finds it irrits!
Ive been talking nonsense lately too.
Telling my sis that I wont live long, etc.
I myself dont know why I could say such a thing.
Feeling uneasy all the time though there's nothing to think or worry about.
Zul told me not to think too much but I just couldnt.
I dont even know whats on my mind actually.
I guess everythings ended.
Keeping all this from him was a mistake and now I manage to let out everything,
I felt a little relieve but guilt still surrounds me.
You went quiet and I guess I'll take it as though u're able to accept everything.
You've been trying to protect me all this while and I really appreciate that.
Your advise and everything has indeed change my life.
But Im sorry. We cant go on like this forever.
I have Zul in my life now.
And I dont want any misunderstanding between us.
Its time to let go of the past and focusing on my present and future.
The Story Of You & Me
3:21 PM.
