Others might be wondering how can I actually forget everything in just a short time and began to accept someone new in my life. Some might be thinking that I'm a playgirl. A girl who likes to play with other people's feeling. But they just doesnt know what exactly happens.
Even SHE thinks of me that way which makes me really upset over what she said to me a couple of days ago. It hurts me deeply cause she's my closest ones. And if she already have that negative thoughts about me, then what about the rest?
Its been days since I last talked to her. And I really missed her so much. Her voice, her hug, her kisses, her smile, her laughter, her kecoh-ness. Without hearing all those, makes my life empty. Who else shall I turn to and share my feelings if not her? Living in the same house but doesnt even talked to each other makes me felt so awkward and uneasy. Is it entirely my fault for things to happen this way? Ive been meddling between work and school. Plus I need to make time for family, friends and Bf. Its just so hard. If only there are more than 24 hours in a day, this whole thing wouldnt be that complicated as it is now. I just hope things would get back to normal. Insyaallah.
Been really tired this past few days. Havent had enough sleep due to lots of projs to rush here and there. Projects are due soon. Exams are coming. Im so stressed up. But so far Ive been managing well. Thats when I have to force myself to stay up a little late at times. I gain motivation and strength from Zul each time I met him. Without him realised it. Thanks to Besties too for helping me out with my projs. =)
Having bad migrane this past few days. And Ive been skipping medicine almost everyday. Sure will get scoldings from Dr Tham this coming thursday. Anw, 6 more days left to dotdotdot. =P
Sometimes its just unfair to him. At times I just felt like letting him go. I keep reminding myself not to expect anything in this relationship. And if ever he finds someone who can make him happy, Im willing to let him go. Cause I know I cant make him happy. There's so many difference in us. I know he tries his best to adapt to my life. Sometimes I just pity him. I felt so guilty when I see his face. I could sense how much he has done for me. I will try to be there whenever he needs me. First time I found someone who loves me more than I love him. I dont know how far our relationship can go. But insyaallah, we can make it far as long as we are sincere and honest with each other. ILY Zul! Yes I do.
The Story Of You & Me 12:24 PM.
.hEr BiOGrApHy.
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SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA
'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE
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StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR
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~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~
The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
