Friday, July 31, 2009
I just feel like taking a stroll at any park.
Or perhaps at the lake near my house
where I usually sit there to relax myself.
My head hurts almost everyday.
Ive been thinking alot lately.
With all problems from school, friends
and not forgetting, Bf.
I really miss him.
Its been 1 week since I last heard from him.
Eversince he went to Melaka,
he didnt even msg me when he's back.
Im trying to control myself
not to disturb him for this moment.
Maybe he needs time to be alone.
I blocked him.
I stay away from him.
I never msg him like I did last time.
I didnt look for him.
And all these really tortures me indeed.
But I cant do anything right now.
I just hope history never repeat itself again.
It has happen to me for 2 times and I dont want this to be
the 3rd time I went through these.
Its really hurtful.
But I guess, its already written that I have to go through
this hardship.
I will patiently wait for him to come back.
I just need to keep myself busy
so that I wont think of him.
Too much tears shedding and I dont wanna make it a habit.
And ketot told me not to be so stupid to think that way.
I have to have confidence in myself that what had happened before
doesnt mean the same thing will happen right now.
But how can when it happen for 2 times already.
And its the same experiences that im facing right now,
at this very moment.
Tell me how can I not think that
this will happen to me for the 3rd time?
Im confused.
The Story Of You & Me
10:03 PM.
