I dont know how to express this. I keep to myself about my past experience which haunt me whenever i feel im in the same situation like before. Bf does asked me before, he doesnt understand why girls feel insecured when their love ones is not there for them. I tried to explain to him but I choose to keep everything to myself. All I can say now is I seriously scared of losing him. I scared history will repeat itself again. I just hope that wont happen. If only Bf knows. Ive been keeping all these to myself. :'(
My past experience. How do you feel when u waited for someone whom u love for more than a month, ended up you've been left just like that without any reason?
How do you feel when u need someone whom u love to be there when u're sad but he's not there?
How do you feel when the one you love making alot of promises to u but ended up making empty promises?
I still remember my worst journey in life. Is when Im having attachment at Changi Airport. The first day I started attachment, marks the life full of sadness. Got to know someone having attachment at another country. Shall not stated who. Given my characteristics whom always have low self confidence, am I strong enough to face all that alone? Every single day before I enter office, I cried when I read every single msg of his just to give me some confidence and motivation. When I was about to put away unhappy feelings, more sadness came into my life. Grandma passed away, getting scolded by supervisor, workloads that have yet to finish when datelines are given not having enough rest. I still remember having to do survey over at Arrival Hall at T3. Seeing those people waiting for their love ones to come back. I imagine myself waiting there for him to come back. There's times when I see his face in others whick look alike. I even fell down from the stairs due to tiredness. I cried otw back home, calling his name in heart. When I finally realised everything is a waste of time. I waited for more than a month, but what do I get in return? He left me just like that without any reasons. What do you think I would feel? Happy? Ive long forgotten about this person. Cause among the others, he hurt me the most. Thanks. But I dont bear grudges on him. Let bygones be bygones.
Now, whenever bf 's in silence, all this started haunting me again. Please, let me have a positive mindset. I have nothing to say. All I can do now is to wait for his msg. If i ever did wrong, Im sorry.
Im sorry. I love you, Nir.
The Story Of You & Me 4:22 PM.
.hEr BiOGrApHy.
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SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA
'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE
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StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR
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~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~
The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
