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Monday, June 29, 2009

Im gonna blog for awhile now.
2 hrs more before 1st paper starts.
Goshh! Im super nervous la.
I dont know why. I scared I couldnt do SAD.
So S.A.D! Haha.
Now in school alone, studying.
Meeting Shu Juan for some Q&A session at 8.30am.
9.30 she off to take her SAD test.
But my class starts at 2pm. >.<
So can still have time to revise again.

Exams are now on.
And too many things for me to think and do.
Friends are having some personal problems.
And I never care about my upcoming test.
Instead lending a listening ear to them.
Life is full of ups and down.
Many challenges to face.
How I wish I was the one who faces all those challenges instead of them.
Can I pray for that to happen to me instead?
Haha. Weird huh?!
I can even pray that I feel the same way as what my mum feel
when she having a terrible headache and fever,
why not I pray that I faces those tests given by Allah instead of my friends?
I just feel its my responsibility to be there for my friends when they need help.
I just hope they are strong enough to face all that has happened lately.
Just one thing to remember.
Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya lebih dari kemampuan mereka sendiri.
Insyaallah dengan hati yang tabah, semua masalah akan selesai.
Yea? Take care friends.

No more blogging this week.
Gonna focus on my MST.
All the best to Nanie! Haha.

Anw, last but not least,
"Sarang-hae-yo Nir Ayim!"
Giler!

The Story Of You & Me
11:35 AM.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Keikhlasan

Seorang insan yang pernah dicintai
Kini sudah datang kembali
Hadir dua insan yang berbeza
Namun kelakuannya serupa

Cinta yang sepatutnya hadir di jiwa
Tatkala menerima kehadirannya
Tidak pernah ku rasakan
Walaupon sudah lama bersama

Namun sebuah penyesalan tidak pernah hadir di hatiku
Saat ku menerima kehadiranmu
Akan kita teruskan perhubungan ini
Dengan adanya keikhlasan di hati

Perasaan

Tiba saatnya kita saling berbicara
Tentang hati dan perasaan kita
Yang sudah sekian lama tidak terungkap
Membuatkan jiwa tersiksa

Masa tidak mengizinkan
Untuk kita meluahkan perasaan
Disini dicari bila perlu pertolongan
Keadaan menyepi bila tidak diperlukan

Adilkah sikapmu itu terhadapku
Yang hanya membuatku menitis airmata
Tahukah dirimu bahawa aku
Juga mempunyai perasaan?

Tidak pernah engkau memahami
Waktu dirimu ku perlukan
Bila ku cuba meluahkan perasaanku ini
Engkau anggap itu suatu gurauan

Adakah engkau yakin dengan perasaanmu
Bila saat engkau mengatakan cinta kepadaku
Tidak pula ku merasakan kesungguhanmu
Menerima diriku sebahagian dari hidupmu

Kenape tiba2 aku rasa takut kehilangan dia?
Kenape aku rasakan yang dia akan tinggalkan aku?
:'(

The Story Of You & Me
1:48 AM.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Why each time having into relationship,
I always have this feeling of uneasiness in me?
Up till now I just couldnt find the answer why I choose him in my life.
Is it just because of sincerity that we both choose each other?
Where was he when I need him?
I wasnt trying to bring up the past.
But I sacrificed my time to help him when he need me.
Why cant he just do the same?
I dont expect him to be always here for me.
To call me, msg me everyday.
No I dont need that from him.
I dont know what to say.
I just dont feel the love from him.
I dont feel the chemistry between us.
Its as if we living in two different world.
Why issit that when I need him, its not him who is there for me.
But someone else?
I guess I shouldnt think too much.
Or perhaps I should just stay positive.
Exams are coming and I seriously dont want all is to be a burden to me.
Especially having to focus myself on FYP.
Its too much for me to handle when all these problems keep adding on.
Before I turn insane, I shall let all this unnecessary problems away from my mind.
I shall start thinking about it once I finish my exam.
Hopefully. I just want to be alone for a moment.
Can I have some peace please??

*No matter what ,I will keep loving you
Even without your knowing.*

The Story Of You & Me
9:34 PM.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

At last! I finish doing questions & answers on Statistics for BF
as a revision for his upcoming exam this Fri.
All the best to him.
I tried my best in helping him.
Yesterday after work went over to his place cause he felt tired coming back from work.
I had a great laugh at him when I reach his place.
Firstly, with his just-wake-up-face. Really2 terrible.
Secondly, he wore his pants high up.
Haha. Looking kind of nerdy.
And lastly, with the blur look on his face when he studied Statistics.
(?_?) really made me laugh non-stop.
Getting free dinner at his house (His dad's cooking. Fish Curry!)
By the time we finish study was already 8 plus near 9.
He sent me home. But drop by at BPP for awhile.
He bought for me Caramel Frappe at BP Starbucks. Thanks dear!

He said, "this is a you since you help me with statistics."

I thought he was buying for himself cause seriously he said he was craving for it.

Seriously all my life I never taste anything from Starbucks before.
Haha. Weird huh? Nah.
I just find it a waste of money having to buy expensive beverage.
We then sat down outside Starbucks for awhile cause he wants to smoke.
(He's really a heavy smoker!)
By the time he finished 2 sticks of cigarettes, it was already nearly 11.
So he didnt send me all the way to my house.
There goes this convo between us.

He: U want to walk first or wait till 963 bus come then u go?
Me: I wait for you till the bus come uh.
He: Is the LRT far from here? (We was at the bus stop outside BPP)
Me: No la. There only (Pointing at the BP LRT station)
He: So far seh. Seriously I worried of you walking there alone.
Me: No la. Less than 5 minutes walk only.
He: Its far la monyet(monkey)!
Me: What monyet2? Im human being ok? Haha.
He: Ok2. Why not you take 963 with me then u alight at pending lrt?
Me: Ok. As you wish.

See. So bad of him calling me monyet(monkey)!
Haha. I felt different yesterday.
Well. Bestie has been asking how me and nir relationship going few days ago.
All I could say to her was "Ok."
Seriously, I find that this relationship was a little bit different.
He somehow told me before he dont believe that I love him and so do I.
Maybe because we both never show our love to each other.
I guess its better that way.
At least we dont expect much from this relationship.
In terms of interest, we both have the same interest in business.
Its easy for us to communicate though.
I just hope he's unlike the rest that Ive met before.
If this relationship fails, I just dont know what to say.
Just pray and hope.
Its not the right time yet to think about all this.
Insyaallah everything will go on smoothly between us.
Yesterday meeting made me feel I need him in my life.
My feelings for him grows each day whenever I started missing him.

The Story Of You & Me
10:41 PM.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Time checkss. Its 1.35am already.
Haha. I just couldnt get to sleep though Im already tired.
So yah. Lets blogging.
On tuesday was fun.
I was out the whole day.
Suppose to meet my grpmates at 9.45am at Boon Keng MRT.
But I reach there at 10.30am.
So many things crop up when I was about to leave the house.
Thats why Im late.
We went to Mustafa centre to shop for our client products.
Guess how long we shop?
From 11 to 4 plus ok?
Tiring! Thirsty! Bored! Fun! & many2 more la.
Haha. Then we went to eat at Mc Donald
after sending all the groceries to Lin Qi's house.
At the same time discuss on our FYP at Lin Qi's house.

I left about 7pm while the rest still discussing for ERP project.
I had to go for outing to celebrate Izzat's bdae.
Nad fetch me at Dover mrt.
She bring along her friend too. =))
I dont know why the moment I step into the car.
I felt so sad. I did cried but no one knows.
Haha. I felt so sad.
As usual. I always the alone whenever I went out with them.
Ade matair pon mcm tkde. Haha.
We bought cake, fetch Aishah & Shafiyyan
and headed to Vivo to meet Izzat & Liyana.
After cutting the cake then we headed to West Coast to play for awhile
Then went to Al-Azhar to eat.
By the time we reach home was alreayd nearly 2am.
First time I ever reach home late. Haha.
But I enjoyed myself.
The feeling of going out at night with friends was cool.

Along the way, Bf did call.
Statistics presentation that I do for him was a success.
Good for him la. He's kind of happy.
Just by calling me that night made me feel happy
even without him by my side. Thanks.

The Story Of You & Me
1:35 AM.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Time checkss! 2.33am now.
But Im still awake. Blogging somemore eh.
Haha. I cant sleep la
with this irritating nose.
Understand understood la eh if u're having flu. =))

Yesterday Bf called me.
He sounds so happy la seyy.
Know why?
Cause he manage to solve some questions on Standard Deviation?!
Haha. Funny guy.

He: Dea, Im so happy la. Confirm got distinction for Stats.
Me: Aik. Confident? Haha.
He: Ya la. If i get distinction, u get it uh.
Me: What? What you want to do? Haha.
He: Got uh. Cant tell you.

He starting to be mushy already uh.
The youngest child mah. Haha.
Well, we're more like a friend.
We dont behave like a couple though.
It is better this way?
Well. Err. Maybe.
I tried not to disturb him for these 2 weeks due to his upcoming exam.
But at times I just couldnt control myself.
When I need him, he always not there.
What to do.
We have different perceptions.
But still, I dont mind going through all these just for him.
I still need to focus myself on my FYP and school.
No more slacking.
He gave me confidence.
We do have same interest in business.
So its kind of easy if I ever need his help and vice versa.
Syukur alhamdulillah.
Good la eh.
The subject that I like, he dont like.
The one that I dont like, he like it. Haha.
I seriously need his help on Financial Management.
Cause till now I dont understand a single thing. Haha.
Same goes to Law.
MST is 3 weeks away.
And I have not started on my revision yet.
When? When? Im so busy with projects and work.
Urgghh. Dear help me out! Haha.

Just now having a small family gathering.
Kenduri for my late grandma.
Only my dad's family were there.
I did laugh alot today.
Dont know why, I joke around together with Hakim.
Haha. Whenever, having me n hakim around,
my mum always get bullied by us. Haha.
No offence ok mum. Lols.
Since she kind of no mood due to some problems,
we manage to make her smile with our lame jokes. Lols.
After maghrib prayers,
me, siblings n cousins when to the nearby carpark highest level.
My uncle bring along his telescope.
So we get to see planet. Haha.
We queue for our turns. haha.
Really so childish.
Even my other uncles n dad join in too.
Haha. Sampai bersila2, bongkok2, nyangkong2 sehh.
So thats all we did just now.
Really had a great time.
Its been quite a while since we last having family gathering
eversince grandma has passed away.
Hoepfully, we get to get together again some day.
Insyaallah. =))

Last but not least.
Happy 2Oth Birthday To Izzat!! =))

Alright. Thats all for todays entry.
Wanna go off to Lala Land right now.
My mata da tkle angzz. haha.
Nytes people. :))

*How should I tell you that I miss you?*

The Story Of You & Me
2:33 AM.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Tuesday was the issuing of school laptop to FYP students.
And the first thing the laptop was handed to me,
I already start complaining.
Haha. Its not because the laptop heavy or something.
But I complained about the sling bag. Haha.
You know like working adult used to carry the laptop sling bag.
Like what la. Haha.
Weird Nanie.

Yesterday was a tiring day for me.
First time meeting bf.
Meeti bf at his area at Hougang at 8.30am.
Cause he really needs my help for his Statistic Project.
and his upcoming Stats exam.
We did have fun joking around.
And to say I laugh alot yesterday.
He was so blur with all the formulas and his blur expression
really tickles me. Haha.
I really cant help it.
He thought I laugh at him cause he dont even know the basics
like mean, median n mode.
He keep saying, "Kau jgn ketawakan aku." =D

Well, if not because of the project

that need to be submitted next week,

up till now I never get the chance to meet him.

He even give me some advises on everything.
I can really say he can be a good motivator or even advisor.
We did have a good time together.
We do his project and study till 4 plus.
Till Im super lazy to work and had to lie to my supervisor
saying that I have to meet client on that day.
Bad Nanie! haha.
Eventually he just send me to Buangkok Station
caus ehe also very tired and had to go tuition later on.
All the way I slept in NEL.
Thought of alighting at Outram Park to take the Green line.
But slept all the way to HarbourFront.
No choice but to take 963 at the Bus Interchange.
I slept all the way till reaching Pending LRT.
I was really really tired.
Well, thanks Nir for everything. =))

The Story Of You & Me
12:23 PM.