So many things happening this past few weeks. And sometimes I just couldnt have the strength to face all this. How I wish I could run away from all this. Im not that strong But what can I do. I still have to face all this challenges no matter what.
1st week of attachment I have to go through without him to give me encouragement. and I guess it will be throughout my whole 7 weeks of attachment. 2nd week and thats when my grandma passed away. 3rd week I got a scoldings from my supervisor. And since then, there's always a fear in me each time I come to work. I cried whenever I go out from my house. I looked at my mum who still sleeping when I go out. How I wish I could tell her everything that I felt at that moment. And how I wish I could hug her tightly to show her how much I need her strength. I looked at my sister. How I wish I could be like her. Spending time at home. And how I wish she always beside me to give me motivation. I feel some kind of pressure inside me. Those who knows me will know what kind person I am. Despite everything that has happened. I still go to work with a sincere heart. I already tried my best. But I guess Im not that confidence in everything I do. I shall not elaborate what happen at work. Just that for now, Im not sure if I could face all this. I just need a break. 4 more weeks and I dont know I'll be able to take it or not Im seriously tired of crying every morning. :(
I hardly had my lunch this days. And Im feeling super weak right now. My migrane comes back on and off and its hurt. And at the same time in LRT, I saw this guy looks abit like him. And i start missing him already. Haish2. I wonder what he's doing right now. Haish2. And I had a great fall at LRT yesterday while I was walking down the stairs. Now my leg hurts. And I cried on the way back home. I feel Im so useless. I dont know. Im feeling so weak. :(
*I dont know why I have doubt in you. Whatever happens, I just need ur sincerity. No lies between us. Thats all im asking for*
The Story Of You & Me 8:13 PM.
.hEr BiOGrApHy.
'-NaMe-'
SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA
'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE
'-D.O.B-'
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JaNuArY 1990
'-PrOffEsIoN-'
StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR
'-SaYiNG-‘ ItS iMpOsSiBLe To Go ThRoUGh LiFe WiThOuT tRuSt
.DeDiCaTiOnS.
~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~
The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
