There's certain things i wanna share here. And there's 1 most important topic will be shared last2.
1) School reopens in 3 days time. And i really had to say, I DONT FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL! But what to do. I still have 2 more years 2 go ok?? Going to meet new friends. In fact, new classmates. Will they be like my old classmates. Pretty sure im gonna miss them yea. =( Well, this is what life is all about. =) Hopefully everything went well. But just that im worried about something. Im gonna study on economics, statistics. Omg! Omg! I scared of that modules ok??
2) Just now i msg2 with my bestie! Nad. =) Long time never contact her. But nevermind. I understand the situation. Im busy with with work. And she busy with her school stuffs. But2, i just hope there would be a meeting where that day, i'll get to hear interesting stories. Cant wait2. =) Right Nad??
3) I cant feel the same way as you do MR A. I just like you as my friend. my workmate. my motivator. my laughing partner. And most of importantly just a friend and always as a friend. Dont expect more from me cause u will know i cant give you anything. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Well, a shocking news just bomb at me yesterday.
A : Hey. I wanna say something to u b4 i went to sleep. Just wanna tell you that i like you. =) ME : (Was talking to Rashidin on the phone.) Uh?? A : The feeling i kept for quite a long time. Its just that i like you. ME : So, whats the reason? A : Actually i like your smile & your sweetness. But i just like you the way you are. ME : (I never reply!)
4) Ok. U have come to the most important part of the entry. So nad. As i said to u just now, i'll blog about me and him soon. So, here it goes. I thought of making a decision. But i know both of it will make me suffer still. Is it the best way if i move a step back or a step forward? If i move a step back, i know that i cant do it. Cause i cant imagine my life without him. But if not, i know i have to wait for him again. The thought of "does he have the same feeling as i had towards him?" will be left hanging still. I'm making myself suffer. So how? Im unsure of what i must do. All this while, the feeling towards him is just so different then the feelings i had towards Faris & Ariff. And if u ask whats the different, i just cant answered. Cause. Cause. Its just so different.
He's the most im worried about. He's the 1st who spent his night everyday talking 2 me on the phone. He respect me. He never feel bored talking to me despite my quietness. He willing to understand me. He always made me smile without failed. He's someone with a wide thinking. && everything.
U know there's this feeling i had since the day i told him i like him too after his confession. Feeling of scared. Yes. Scared. There's this qn keeps lingering in my mind. "What will happen if 1 day he leave me & never come back?" I once ask him this. And instead he ask me back. I just feel. Hmm. I just cant imagine life without him. I just feel life will be meaningless. And2, i just feel there will be no more after him. Like 'lelaki melayu terakhir' la katakan. Ya. Thats what i feel. Its just weird. Apakah semua ini?? =( And each time after we met, and the time we go our separate ways, my heart always shout his name. Like doesnt want him to go. Wanting to spent time again with him. But i never say. I just kept quiet. And despite that, he knows but he too never say. We just watch each other go our own ways. I just feel scared. "What if thats our last meeting?" ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- TO BE CONTINUED
The Story Of You & Me 10:42 PM.
.hEr BiOGrApHy.
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SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA
'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE
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StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR
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~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~
The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
