Monday, February 25, 2008
Assalamualaikum peepz.Hmm. Now 2.09am.And i still have not sleep yet. Haiz.Something bothering me, really bothers me.I want to cry cann??Issit about rashidin? Or others?Let me share everthing here.I dont know if what i do a gd or a bad thing.What im doing right now, this pass few days,is indeed tortures me.I tried to stop loving him.Because i realize that loving him,even makes me heartbroken.I dont know whats inside his heart.But i feel. Hmm. Ntahlah.And i control the misses i had towards him.He nvr msg, i dont even make a move 1st to msg him.Like what i always do.Its better this way. Hmm.But i cant deny that i really2 miss him so much. :'(Next thing. Someone whom im aware had feelings for mesince we were in sec 2.I was walking back hm after work.And usually would took the stairs at the newbadminton court near my house.And there's always a bunch of guys lepak-ing there.As usual, i always walk while listening to music.Selembe jek uh jln.Then i heard someone called my name.Yes. Its him.His friends was like teasing him.He walked me home.I can feel he abit shy.Its the first time talking face to face and2,i began to look him up as a bro who can protect me wherever i go.But i know on the other hand, he dont think that way.We chat with each other just now.And2 he's trying to win my heart.Sorry. I cant.I know he dont give up on getting me,but just that there's no feelings towards him.Or maybe it will nvr happen.I guess right now, my heart is already closed.Its up to them uh if they want to call me,not being understanding or even trying to torture them or what.Because i myself know what im doing.Once bitten twice shy.The heart wont easily healed.Im sorry guys.Hmm. Thats all i guess.Sometimes i wish im rich.So that i could bought a ticket to anywherethat is more peaceful and relaxing my mind.Hmm. :'(
The Story Of You & Me
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