Assalamualaikum.. =) Juz change ma blogskin yarr.. Cos simply da naik 'JEMU' ar ngan skin lame.. Hehe.. Well, cant get 2 slip, so here i m bloggin.. Juz left 1 more module n dats it.. It will b on next tues wich is ITOS.. Guess diz weekends den i will start studyin.. Juz wanna relax myself for diz 2 daes 1st..
TUES: Math paper was such a disaster.. Eh2, did i sound like its gonna be totally worst?? Nyahaha.. No la.. For mi, not bad.. Most of it, i can do.. Well, juz bcos dats ma fav subj.. Remember?? Hee.. Juz for 1 or 2 parts i din do but lucki it was in sect A.. Noe y?? Cos sect A is 70 marks but d max marks we get is 50.. Noe wat i mean? Like if u get 60+ or 50+, u will still get 50.. Hmm.. So hopefully, i dun have any careless mistake sumware.. Well, our exam class is at T1!! Haiz.. Got 2 walk a long wae frm dover mrt.. Waiting for the gals at dover mrt at 1.15pm but it start at 2.. I reach dere at 12.55?? haha.. well, its betta 2 b early den to have sum1 waitin.. Hmm.. N wen doin d paper, it was damn cold la.. Ma fren did ask the invigilator to lower down the temp.. But i juz duno wat the heck was he doing.. Haha..
THURS: Havin Java exam.. Mitin dem as usual at dover mrt.. Java paper was so so so so.. Hee.. Not dat difficult.. 2 sae Moderate la yarr.. Juz dat 2-3 qns i juz duno how 2 do though its an open book test.. Watha.. But seriuz.. Its quite difficult n nvr expect it 2 cum out.. Hmm.. But wat 2 do.. Wats done is done.. Rite2.. Though how many times u wanna regret is no use cos its already happen.. N dat wateva it is, the ans cant be change.. Rite2.. Haha.. Btol nani.. Btol2.. Nyahaha.. K2.. Enuf of dat.. :P
Well.. Actuali, d purpose i update m blog 2dae is bcos.. Ermm.. I wanna let put all that ive been tinking for the past few daes.. Abt RELATIONSHIP?? ErmmHmm..
Well.. Juz a few daes ago when i start readin message log between mi n MR F.. The message that we've been chatting through msn.. I still save it in ma comp ya.. When i read it, i just feel it still happening yea..I mean the love. Though i noe its juz an invisble feeling that happen.. Or should i say it juz wont come through again.. Hmm I laugh, i cried.. Again and again.. Started missing MR F.. I juz dunno wen will i be able 2 forgot MR F.. Yes.. I should say, i felt nothing about MR F now.. Cos perhaps i just feel that we are 'stranger'.. N at the same day, I pick up a courage 2 msg MR F..
Nani: Cinta itu indah di waktu permulaan.. Tap pahit di waktu perpisahan.. Bile fkr2 balik, rasenye tkde guna lagi mempersoalkan semua yg telah berakhir.. Tapi ada kalanye kite tk mampu menolak perasaan yg tiba2 dtg.. Kalaulah ia mudah utk dipulekan, tk ingin merayu2 pd org y da tk sudi.. Kan? Maafkan diri ini..
MR F: Maafkan daku juga.. Tidak terlintas di hati ini utk menyakiti sesiapa..
I juz duno y, i choose to tink abt MR F though the feelings is not there.. Sumhow, sumtimes, i wanna be loved.. I wanna feel it.. N wen dere's sum1, hu confess to me.. I REJECT MR W.. I juz cant, cos anuder side of mi, ask mi 2 wait for MR F.. MR W said he wud wait for mi, even 8 yrs or more.. Haishh.. But indeed i made a gd decison.. Cos in the end, i noe MR W true colors.. Juz dun mean wateva MR W sae.. Its all juz 2 PLEASED me yea.. Luckili im not dat dumb as too trust all that he said..
Well.. Ive been asking around.. 'Y GUYS JUZ LIKE 2 PLAY WITH GALS FEELING?' MR D said 'perhaps dey get cheated b4 by gals n dat now dey wanna revenge..' Izzit?? N if i put masef in it eh?? Have i eva cheated sum1?? Tell mi.. Have i?? I try 2 changed masef.. Im being loyal.. I treat a relationship seriuzli.. Du u ink im like others?? Hu juz change2 bf?? Wat so great abt dat uh?? Mi too at fault.. I noe im juz a gal hu dozen have anitin.. I noe I cant give everitin that u ask for.. I noe i cant give the happiness that u wanted.. I noe i cant love sum1 like the way others do.. I nvr ask much frm u guys.. Wat dat has happen, it really teach mi a lesson.. N now all i eva ask is 'PLEASE DUN BREAK MA HEART AGAIN' I cant take it for diz heart is reali weak 2 b broken again n again.. :'(
The Story Of You & Me 11:11 PM.
.hEr BiOGrApHy.
'-NaMe-'
SiTi RoHaNi MuStAfA
'-PrEffErEd NaMe-'
NaNiE
'-D.O.B-'
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JaNuArY 1990
'-PrOffEsIoN-'
StUdEnT CaRe TeAcHeR
'-SaYiNG-‘ ItS iMpOsSiBLe To Go ThRoUGh LiFe WiThOuT tRuSt
.DeDiCaTiOnS.
~ StArLiGhT tEaRs ~
The white starlight envelops the tears
The tears fall in the warm wind
Do you feel it?
This trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way
I drew you in this white paper
The warm smile holds me
Is this love
Even when i close my eyes, i see only you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Im walking in my memories with you
The tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
What should i do?
Even in my dream i miss you
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
Please look at me, like the faraway stars
Can't you be the one thats in my heart
I'll be waiting for you
I will wait for you
I dont want to see the tears of pain anymore
You let me know this love thats like a lie
I'll never let it go
Because that love is you
