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Sunday, June 24, 2007

Oh well2.. Nani is here again..
Hmm.. I guess.. 4 d time being I'l not be bloggin..
Coz simply, im havin ma MST diz cumin wk..
Hee.. Cant chill n slack lyk b4..
Or shud i sae lyk NOW.. Hahakz..
2mrw im havin JAVA..
So slamat la Nani utk besok iyeerrr!!

Hmm.. So ysdae.. Well2..
Havin a BAD stomachache since i woke up in d mornin..
Aso duno y.. Hiashh..
T has been ma 2nd hse 4 ysdae.. Duhh!!
T tu ape?? Tktau?? Tkatu tanye la.. Haha..
Ala.. Paham2 jek la eh.. Ane lag tmpt nk g kalu tk tmpt tu..
Lolz.. Bluekzz..
Well2, kinda feel so SAD ysdae..
Ma adek sedare dun wanna stay wit ma famili nimore..
Coz i simply duno wat actuali d reason is..
Hmm.. But wat 2 do..
We cant FORCE him rite..
N sumore he's been becumin WILD now..
Haisshh.. Simply dozen appreciate 4 wat ppl haf done 4 him..
Esp ma parents hu haf been takin care of him since he was 6 MTHS OLD..
Hmm.. S.U.S.A.H!!
Hopefuli he wil change 4 d betta 1 dae.. Hmm..

N 2dae.. Duno yim so d RAJIN..
Helpin ma mum wit hse chores n cookin..
So now kinda feelin TIRED..
So uz chill 4while uh..
Hmm.. Ok la.. Gonna start studyin leadi..
So everi1 takkaires aite..
C ya n wait 4 ma NEXT entry.. :P

The Story Of You & Me
4:33 PM.

Friday, June 22, 2007

NaNi is HERE rite naw!! :P
Da few daes daes since I laz blog..
Kinda bz uh.. Haf 2 studi 4 ma upcumin MST..
Wat 2 do.. Hmm.. Well2..
4 d paz few daes haf been gg out..
EH! Not gg jln2 uh.. STUDI tauuu!!!
Either wit NAD.. SAL.. ZAF.. Or alone.. Hmm..
Alalala cian Sal.. 3 wks of hols but kinda bored 4 her..
Coz simply her otha frenz is skulin..
N her parents n sis werkin.. So left her alone at hm..
Ish2.. No wonder la.. Hmm..

Tues n wed haf been gg WCC(Woodland Civic Centre)
S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G!! While Sal play wit ma laptop..
But Wed, went dere simply 2 find job wit Zaf.. Hahakz..
But mostli wanted 18 yrs old.. Haishh..
But actuali wasnt dat seriuz 2 werk..
Tau2 jek uh.. Stil gt skul, etc.. T.I.M.E?? N.O!!
Dats y.. N ysdae study wit Nad n aL-fee at MC FJR..
Hahaha.. Seein their arguments, etc.. Makin mi larf jek.. =)
N 2DAE?? I gt JAVA MOCK T.E.S.T!!
Oh gosshh!! H.A.N.C.U.R dok!! Hee.. Nah.. Actuali ok2 la..
Halfwae done oni.. Noe wat?? Kinda hapi wen i can get d codes correctly..
But stil haf sum parts wrong uh..
Spend time tinkin haw 2 solve diz..
Can imagine Im sittin 4 d real practical test..
Wich is on diz cumin M.O.N!! Imagine dat!!

N naw im slackin 4 a dae.. Coz i simply T.I.R.E.D!!
Slip late last nite n haf 2 wake up earli juz naw..
N suddenli gt H.E.A.D.A.C.H.E!! Betta haf sum rest uh..
Oh well2.. I guess.. Enuf of diz..
Coz actuali d reason Im bloggin rite naw..
Juz 2 let out sumtin here.. Hmm..

Well.. Sum of u mite noe wat happen lateli..
In fact a few daes or even wks ago..
Indeed wanna tank 2 sum of u dat haf been concernin abt mi..
Esp u ma B.E.S.T.I.E.. Tankz 4 ur advise n motivation..
2 sae d truth.. Ol dat has happened.. I nvr blame ani1 pon but masef..
Wat he sae pon indeed its true..
Ol diz while he's been tryin 2 motivate mi, etc..
4 havin diz attitude la dat he accept mi at d beginning..
Tinkin dat I deserve sum1 care n motivation..
N he oreadi do wat he shud do..
But d prob stil lies in mie.. Syg skali..
Diz attitude aso bcums a barrier btwn us..
4 I agree wit wat u sae..
Its not easy 4 sum1 lyk mi 2 change..
N i guess wit ma presence in his life, indeed givin him more headache..
Coz he too haf his own probs.. N its betta we separate..
Coz it benefits d both of us..
Sumtimes I tink back.. Izzit at d beginning im kinda R.U.S.H??
As in acceptin sum1 I juz noe 4 juz A dae..
Mayb dat point of time I reali nid sum1..
Nvr knew it wud hurt mi soo much naw..
In fact,even deeper den wat ive xperience b4..

Hmm.. Well, I tryin 2 4get him..
Been 1 wk since i las contact him..
So i guess naw, kinda bit by bit, feelin natin abt him..
I.Z.Z.I.T?? Hmm.. I admit dat i stil do tink abt him sumtimes..
Esp at nite.. N wen dat happen, diz tears nvr fail 2 flow..
:'( Ol dat happened has happen..
No 1 cud eva turn back d clock again..
Haf 2 accept wat ive fated 2 be..
Btw, its not actuali E.N.V.Y dat i fil wen seein couples..
It juz dat.. I W.I.S.H i can haf hapiness lyk dem..
But even if i cant haf it.. I oni hope 2 c dem hapi..
N nvr eva been in diz kinda situation lyk mi..
So yah.. HAPI2 OLWAZ PEEPZ..
IM HAPI IF URE HAPI.. =)
No more sorrow or sadness.. Insyaallah.. Evritin wil ended soon!!
Tankz once again 2 u hu C.A.R.E.S!!

The Story Of You & Me
9:07 PM.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Assalamualaikum.. =)
Im here again la.. Hee..
Btw, no time 4 new entry 4 d las few daes..
Kinda bz revisin 4 ma cumin MST..
n also.. Ermm.. Hmm.. =)

So wat naw?? Hmm..
Lets tok abt on THURS..
I went 2 ECP wit ma sis n Sha..
Ma sis havin claz bbq so im taggin along since she invited mi so..
Hee.. At laz.. Wanna go dere actuali..
Hmm.. b4 reachin, wait 4 Sha at clementi bus intchnge..
Gonna take 196 2 dere.. Ma sis buy diz tshirt 4 $5 at Clementi..
Hahakz.. Guess y?
She wear so nice like wanna go jln2 lyk dat..
Hee..

Dere, we have 2 buy charcoal, ice cubes, etc..
Hey Sha! C i tol u at 7-11 aso ade jual Charcoal tau!!
Hahaha.. Tk caye.. Lolz..
Den we have 2 walk 4 abt 15 mins 2 reach d pit..
So far tau.. Sumware at d Chalet dere..
Haiz.. Wanna rent bike actuali tap tk jad :(
Tsk.. Tsk.. Bluekkzz!! :P
Indeed not so many peepz dere uh..
Oni half of her clasmates gg..
Hmm.. Kinda ask ma ss take diz n dat..
Hahakz.. So bad of mi.. Bt wat 2 sae..
Mi n Sha is her guest aftaol.. Lolz..
Gt 2 eat chicken, hotdog, fishball, satay, prawn, meeeeeee!!!
Yummy Yum Yum.. Lolz..

At laz.. Go hm at abt 10 plus..
Wit ma sis, Sha n 3 of ma sis guy clasmates.. Ciner lerr!!
We plan 2 take taxi 2 Eunos MRT..
N hey Sha.. We did saw sumtin rite.. Gold2 color.. Lolz..
So yah.. Reach hm at 12.05am.. :)

Ysdae again anuder story abt sumtin..
A problem dat juz cuden stop occurin..
Hiasshh.. Indeed its hard 2 change sum1 2 bcum a betta person uh..
Hmm.. Wen wil diz eva stop yarr??
I pity her.. Though so many tings happenin..
She juz diden gif up but instd kip tryin..
Not lyk sum of her siblings hu juz so ****'in ****
K enuf of dat.. It makes ma heart boil.. Hmm..

Well, stil havin difficulties in sum of ma modules..
Im begin 2 fil so scared..
Scared dat i cuden make it esp JAVA!!
Oh gosshh!! pls help mi!! Haishh..

Im tryin 2 forget everitin..
Everitin dat made mi fil sorrow
ol diz while
But 1 ting i wont 4get
U n mi
Dats impossible
I **** * nevertheless :(

The Story Of You & Me
1:37 PM.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Hip2 Hoorayyyyyy!!!!

At laz i change ma BLOGSKIN..

Lolz.. Hapi gilerrrr tau!!!!

So xcited man.. Lolz..

Hehe.. amcm?? nice?? hmm..

ntahla eh.. ur own COMMENT plss!! WEE :P

Tankz 2 SHARONA aso 4 helpin mi.. MACEH2!!

K la actuali natin 2 write..

So yah.. Toodoles..

TAKE CARE everi1.. Lolz.. :P

The Story Of You & Me
6:07 PM.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Da terlalu bnyk benda plak yg mi fkrkan..
N i juz fil i wanna let it ol out..
Hmm.. sumtin i juz fil i duno masef..
I duno y i m like diz..
So weak.. Quiet, shy, low confi,etc..
Even i juz hate masef.. No matter how hard i try..
But i juz cuden overcum ol diz..

N i realised dr dulu lag..
Im not so gd.. In terms of everitin..
I juz wish i wud mit sum1 hu can change mi..
Everitin.. 2 becum a betta person..

Wen d 1st time.. GG into ma 1st rltnshp..
I olwaz tot dat it wil last..
Not like otha peepz rltnshp dat dozen last long..
Coz i trust masef.. Dat wen im wit sum1,
trust masef, 2 luv him til d end of time..
But indeed, its reali hurts.. 2 fail d 1st time..
2 sae i wasnt reali blif in ol diz..
But wen i went thru it.. Its reali hurts deepli..

4 d 2nd time.. Indeed it quite long..
But sad 2 sae.. Stil a failure..
Frm dere.. I juz noe.. I wasnt readi 4 ol diz..
Mayb yg silap, mi.. Masef..
Den has 2 vow dat it wud b d last..
But it wasnt..
Did i make a rush decision??
Or issit its true wat sis sae..
Mayb i reali nid sum1 dat time??
Izzit?? Indeed she reali reali concern abt mi..
N she hope dat he wud tc 4 mi..
But sad 2 sae again.. It failed..

Seein dem filin hapi.. Fil so jealous..
But im hapi 4 dem.. Y cant i b like dem??
Wat ive done wrong til ol diz happens 2 mi??
its diff 4 mi 2 face it.. reali..
i want dat strong..
yeah.. its easy 4 u ol 2 sae..
but we can b so sure dat a new 1 cums wud b betta..
Rite?? rite naw.. i choose 2 run awae..
but its hard 4 mi 2 leave..
i noe sum of u reali care..
but its not worth it though..

not onli abt dat.. but even d tings i want..
mayb i wasnt so seriuz in gettin sumtin..
sumtin dat i want.. its indeed true dat sum1 sae 2 mi..
'there's olwaz a blessin in disguise.. u r meant 4 betta tings'
izzit?? but i juz cuden c.. natin dat can help mi..
leadin mi 2 noware..
im lost once again..
im waitin.. waitin 4 u 2 set mi free frm ol diz..
hu issit diz time?? hmm.. :'(

The Story Of You & Me
10:24 PM.

haisshh.. start ma SKUL HOLS leadi..
So bored at hm.. Though i noe i haf 2 studi 4 ma cumin MST..
Hmm.. Juz finish helpin ma mum wit d hse chores..

was out d whole dae ysdae wit ma famili..
Tot wanna go CWP wit ma sis..
But at d same time ma mum gt jemputan near dere too..
So mi n sis juz follow ma parents jek uh..
but ma bro left alone at hm..
den we tot of gg ECP..
fetch ma adek, etc..
bt on d wae dere, ma aunt col..
she sk weder we wanna go ma grandma hse..
coz ma uncle went hols at M'SIA..
Left her alone n d maid..

We din go dere first uh.. Instd juz fetch ma aunt 2 ma grandma hse..
Den we went 2 CHANGI jek..
Lek2 pat situ 4while jek..
Guess wat? Saw salwah dere.. Hee..
Wat a small world..
She havin famili bbq i guess..
Den mi n sis collected so many SEASHELL..

Soon, it nearli rain so we pack2 our things..
Readi 2 go ma grandma hse..
b4 dat.. We saw ice cream man dere..
Wat d ****!!! Wanna curse dat old man..
Ckp baik2 nk kurangaja plak..
Duhh!!!!
Den gif d ice cream nvr open d cover..
Ma sis open d cover den throw on d ground..
Infnt of him sumor.. Hahakz..
Actuali mi mum juz wanna ask, weder gt mix flavour anot..
Den he like shout, 'apa? gua tktau apa lu ckp'
Den he ring2 d bell.. **** sei!!!

Den went 2 ma gandma hse..
Doin natin dere.. Juz watch tv etc..
We leave dere at arnd plus..
But o d wae, ma dad gt a col.. He gt job 2 do at ECP..
He sae it wud b 4while oni..
So mi, nana, sis, mum n auntwent 2 ea at MC ECP..
Pity ma bro coz he were ask 2 help ma dad..
hahakz.. We waited frm 8 plus -10pm..
Seein ma aunt eyes veri red leadi..
So we juz go hm 1st uh..
aited 4 taxi dere punye la lamer..
So we walk outsid..
Alhamdulillah at laz dpt jugek..

Naseb aik we go hm 1st..
If not.. Haizz.. Guess wat time dey both gt hm??
1 plus la dey.. Hahakz..
If we were 2 wait.. Haf 2 wat til 12 plus sei..
Hiasshh..
k dats ol 4 now..

assalamualaikum =)

The Story Of You & Me
1:56 PM.

Saturday, June 9, 2007

The Story Of You & Me
7:45 PM.

KINI BEBAS ~ ANUAR ZAIN ft CAMELIA
Kasih ku kini pasti
Tiada resah dan gelisah
Hilang dari satu keraguan
Indahnya kedamaian ku rasa
Yang bermain di jiwaku
Merindui dirimu oh kasih

Demi janji yang bersatu
Dalam mimpi dan fantasi
Kasih dan sayangku penuh erti
Bayangan rindu sering berseri
Tidakkan lari
Walaupun masa yang berganti

(ChOrUs)
Kini bebas
Pergi dari minda ini
Realiti
Merahnya di kasih suci
Kini bebas
Hilang dari rasa
Yang sering resah kerana cinta
Tiap masa

Sempurna daku merasa
Tika hadir segalanya
Kasih yang ku simpan tidak luntur
Kerdipan sinar cinta darimu
Akhirnya pasti
Di mahligai indah yang bersatu

(ChOrUs)

Bahagia hidupku kini
Sempurna jua
Tiada lagi keraguan kasih
Bebas....

The Story Of You & Me
7:39 PM.

Hey well m back here..
So sorie 4 not bloggin 4 nearli 1wk..
BUt hu cares.. Nobody gonna read..
Rite? Hmm..
Well quite bz 4 d pass few daes..
Lots of assignment n projs 2 do..
Givin mi a headache..
N aso, no mud 2 write anitin actuali..
Guess haf natin much 2 sae..

So.. Hmm.. Havin a 2 wks break now..
Simply, not gonna b a hols 4 mi, or shud i sae
not 4 peepz in SP??
Coz we gonna have our MST wen skul starts..
Haisshh.. Havin java on mon..
IEB on thurs n MOB on fri..
Got MATH aso but duno wen uh..
but d funni ting is, d test oni takes 1 hr..
So yah.. Ma oni mission rite naw is.........
2 studi 4 d cumin MST.. Esp JAVA!!
Oh gosshh!! Stil have difficulties in it..
Wonder if i can do it or not..
So.. Haf 2 studi extra hard 4 it..
No more slackin eh.. Hmm..

Las mon.. Havin a 2nd chance presentation 4 IDEA..
D***!! So nervous but i guess its betta diz time round..
Kinda of hapi coz MR GEORGE TEO sae im improvin..
Gonna stay like diz.. Cant b scared animor..
Tot i cud.. But.. On tues during ma IEB presenatation..
Oh gosshh.. HANCUR!! I juz duno y..
Im shiverin while im presenting..
Lolz.. suddenli i 4got wat i wanna sae.. Haishh..
NANI2!! Wat telah happen gal.. Hmm..
Well enuf abt dat.. Wat done is done..
Dun wish 2 tok abt it.. But haf 2 do much betta next time..
Remember dat NANI!! Hmm..

Btw, frenz..
Ive a confession 2 make..
If dere's a sudden silnece frm mi,
juz treat s if im gonna b awae 4 a moment..
Pls, dun search 4 mi..
At diz moment..
I wud like 2 b alone..

In life ive olwaz hopin 4 d betta.
but everitime wen ive found sum1
dey wil sureli go awae..
far.. farawae frm ma life.
dats not wat i wanted..
n 2 let u noe..
ure d first..
everitn.. hopefuli u not 4gotten..
n dat no one.. no one ever does dat..
2 haf tot u wud b d last..
but its ol dreams..
its easi 4 u 2 sae.. 'i deserved sum1 betta'
but du i??
i cant b so selfish n greedi..
i cant let sum1's turn 2 haf it..
i cant.. oni u.. just u..
4 diz heart oni belongs to u.. :'(

The Story Of You & Me
4:27 PM.

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Would You be There by Redwan Ali

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that’s ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good,would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back…

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one.
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one.
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I will wait, would you still think of me.
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way…

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one.
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there.
To kiss my pain away?

Would you be there…

For Me…

The Story Of You & Me
4:49 PM.

Im so sorie.. I noe dat im useless..
To tink dat u ol gt sae bad tings abt mi..
But i wont blame ani1.. Its true..
Coz i noe its ol ma fault..
N yesh, im nt contributing much 2 it..
I noe masef.. Ive help as much as i can..
But im kinda of filin distracted nawadaes..
Wich ol of u wun understan it..
4 i prefer 2 kip it ol by masef..
Im so sorie..
I juz fil im worth 2 b part of u ol..
No point havin mi arnd..
Coz dere no difference weder im bein dere or not..
I simply a useless person..
Haw i wish i can run awae frm here..
Not bcoz running frm d probs i had..
I juz fil i wanna haf sum peace..
Wit no 1 arnd.. No one!!
Sum of u indeed care n concern abt mi..
But i noe its not worth it..
I duno haw i can face u ol.. I reali2 confused..
:'( :'( :'(

i reali miss u so much
i noe u doin ol diz 4 ma own gd
but u juz dun understan
i wud rader die den 2 face ol diz tings
again and again..:'(
i reali miss u :(

The Story Of You & Me
3:44 PM.

Friday, June 1, 2007

kenape diri nie lemah sngt??
diz tears kips flowing..
wen will it stop??
haisshh.. so many tings been happening arnd mi..
I juz cuden control it..
so much pressure on mi..
n i guess no 1 wil understan..
onli i do.. juz 4get it??
how izzit possible wen it kips hauntin mi??
lingerin in ma mind.. its cant b so simple olrite!!

indeed u haf such a big mouth..
such a coward la eh..
tokin abt ppl bhin their back..
izzit worth it im askin u?? izzit??
wat a ******* mouth!!

*indeed no 1 else care..
not even u.. haisshh.. :'( *
dun bother.. :(

The Story Of You & Me
11:34 PM.